Am not sure if its your tast but since no one gave you a recommendion yet i tought ill tell you
There is a game called Lona RPG it has alot of people playing it and its art is amazing
But its loli and really really hard like....dark souls hard
The more fucked up tags are disabled by defult so give it a look if you whant if you don't like it then am sorry but thats the closest thing to what you whant that i know of