Selebus is just trying to forget reality and live in a grandiose fantasy.
Many such cases these days as the psychic pain of alienation builds in this crumbling society
(maintained only, temporarily, by ubiquitous distraction).
Lessons in Love started as his inner self trying to re assert (care about others in a real way).
Then the narcissistic false self and the introjects locked him back in the cage.
(His raw psychodynamics are very much on open display in the game)
Alas, mortification is the only path to freedom.
But what is a child with a grandiose and heartless shell to do against chaos, in a world where nothing makes sense-
where matter that came from nothing or existed endlessly creates undeniable and magic consciousness- but still appears to be just food for worms?
There is nothing but fear and reverence for us in this world, Selebus.
But it is real.
And that means something.
Things don't have to be this way.
You can be a real person. But you won't get to hide from the pain any more.
You won't get to tell yourself that hurting others doesn't matter.
You won't get to tell yourself that you will last, that your life is not finite and callous despite
any and all praise or accolade or object that makes you feel, briefly, that you will cheat death.
That's a Lesson in Love (TM).
