Alright. I've continued to test everything, and some issues have arisen related to the changes I've made.
That's to be expected, and there's no turning back now.
So, I'll persist, address every issue, and ensure everything works as efficiently and effectively as possible.
On a more personal note, I think I'm experiencing burnout symptoms lately. I'm feeling detached, unmotivated, and irritable.
This is the longest stretch I've had between updates, and the mere thought of taking a break makes me feel guilty.
So much that I can't even bring myself to find joy in any hobbies that worked wonders in the past.
The irony is that I'm not stupid and I know I need to take breaks, or my performance will drop to shitty levels, which is worse.
I tell you this, not to justify any slacking on my part (I'm pushing through anyway), but just to be honest.
I'm aware most of you are patient as fuck and will say *"Hey, don't worry, take your time, and don't stress so much over it."* Thanks, guys. I fucking love you.
Then some stalkers will be happy at this admission of weakness and will try to use it as a confirmation of their doomsday preaching. I don't care.
For the rest of the 'undecided' people, I have a message...
Yes, this project is going slow as fuck. I know it and trust me that's the main reason for my misery right now.
However, as I've said many times, I don't have the luxury of giving up. This is my full-time job for better or worse, and there is no way I could even return to my previous work life, even if I wanted to. You guys are stuck with me and my amateur game for the long run.
I know things look grim from the outside, there is no visible indication of the project progressing, and now I'm even admitting I'm not at my best. I don't look like a winning horse, I know.
But... I'm not going to stop. This horse will never stop running, even if it's at a pathetic limping trotting pace.
That's a promise.