i don’t even know where to start with this, but i just need to get this off my chest. i feel like i’m reaching a point where i don’t just dislike ntr, but porn as a whole is starting to feel... off. like, i used to think it was just ntr that pissed me off. the whole idea of betrayal, manipulation, and just watching someone get humiliated like that, it stopped feeling like "just a fetish" to me and started feeling gross. it’s weird because i never really thought that deeply about it before, but now, every time i see it, it just ruins my mood completely.
but then i started realizing, it's not just ntr. the more i look at porn in general, the more it starts feeling... empty? repetitive? fake? idk how to describe it, but it’s like i’ve become aware of how hollow it all is. at first, it was just the usual burnout yk? when you’ve seen too much, and nothing really excites you anymore. but now, it’s like i see through it. like, i see how exploitative it is, how disconnected it makes me feel, how it messes with expectations and reality.
i'm not saying this as some "porn is evil" moral crusade or whatever. i don’t judge anyone who watches it, and i’m not suddenly some enlightened monk or anything. but i can't shake this feeling that it's just not... good for me anymore. like, instead of making me feel satisfied, it just leaves me feeling worse. idk, maybe i'm just overthinking it. maybe it's just a phase. or maybe i'm just realizing something i wasn’t ready to admit before.
but then i started realizing, it's not just ntr. the more i look at porn in general, the more it starts feeling... empty? repetitive? fake? idk how to describe it, but it’s like i’ve become aware of how hollow it all is. at first, it was just the usual burnout yk? when you’ve seen too much, and nothing really excites you anymore. but now, it’s like i see through it. like, i see how exploitative it is, how disconnected it makes me feel, how it messes with expectations and reality.
i'm not saying this as some "porn is evil" moral crusade or whatever. i don’t judge anyone who watches it, and i’m not suddenly some enlightened monk or anything. but i can't shake this feeling that it's just not... good for me anymore. like, instead of making me feel satisfied, it just leaves me feeling worse. idk, maybe i'm just overthinking it. maybe it's just a phase. or maybe i'm just realizing something i wasn’t ready to admit before.