- Aug 7, 2016
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Hello, I don't know if is the right place to post this or any other forum but if it is not the right place, I ask the great mods to remove this.
And hello again, I will post something that I decided maybe everyone should give it a good read.
I am a man, who is still a virgin, but now realised that has a problem.
Like many people on the internet, I watched porn. Than I suddenly discovered the porn games.
I was/am battling depression for 5 years now, and I also tried to kill myself, but I overcame that after realising I live only for myself and I am on this world only for my satisfaction. However now that I look behind me I realised I fell in a hellish circle. In order to overcome depression I was doing a lot of stuff. I lost quite a lot of brain cells drinking and smoking marijuana. I am also still smoking cigaretes but I will overcome that too.
However the most I curse myself falling into the hell that is pornography. I discovered h games after playing Super Deep throat, and damn I fell deep. I downloaded tons of games and spent a lot of hours playing them. At first I was only doing this for satisfaction of few minutes. But it quickly progressed to be able to do it for 10 hours or more (some rpg games) At the same time I also found the hentai appealing, and I over time got worse and worse fetishes. I despise myself for liking loli hentai and some others. I don't judge you all who like it and any other fetishes. But I had a revelation lately that I want to share with you to ponder over.
It is ok to explore your fetishes, but don't let them explore you. Don't fall into a pit of constant enjoyment and excition. It is a bad thing. I also saw a video of a celebrity who addmited that he was watching porn for hours on end, and it is the worst addiction I have ever been trough. After finally finding a woman that is a 10/10 who also likes me and would do anything with me I discovered a problem. I am no longer turned on by a woman's body as I was... after doing anything we both could, we discovered even if I do anything to satisfy her, woman still like seing men satisfied. And that is a big problem if your penis does not learn move harden... So while I did suffer, I also learned something. You should be able to control yourself. And if you don't, you have a problem. I am not saying that everyone who reads this is like this. However I want you to ponder over it. If just one person starts to rethink, I did my purpose. I missed my chance, don't you miss yours.
As for my road. I will see where it takes me. One thing is for sure. I will not masturbate to h games and I will delete all 150GB i have. As a matter of fact one computer is allready clean. And it feels like another rock fell from my back.
Anyway, this is a great community, and I can only applaud F95 to found this. If it would not be such a hell of a obsession to me, I would like to stay with you guys for a long time, as I like discussing fetishes and whatnot. Not many places are like that.
And hello again, I will post something that I decided maybe everyone should give it a good read.
I am a man, who is still a virgin, but now realised that has a problem.
Like many people on the internet, I watched porn. Than I suddenly discovered the porn games.
I was/am battling depression for 5 years now, and I also tried to kill myself, but I overcame that after realising I live only for myself and I am on this world only for my satisfaction. However now that I look behind me I realised I fell in a hellish circle. In order to overcome depression I was doing a lot of stuff. I lost quite a lot of brain cells drinking and smoking marijuana. I am also still smoking cigaretes but I will overcome that too.
However the most I curse myself falling into the hell that is pornography. I discovered h games after playing Super Deep throat, and damn I fell deep. I downloaded tons of games and spent a lot of hours playing them. At first I was only doing this for satisfaction of few minutes. But it quickly progressed to be able to do it for 10 hours or more (some rpg games) At the same time I also found the hentai appealing, and I over time got worse and worse fetishes. I despise myself for liking loli hentai and some others. I don't judge you all who like it and any other fetishes. But I had a revelation lately that I want to share with you to ponder over.
It is ok to explore your fetishes, but don't let them explore you. Don't fall into a pit of constant enjoyment and excition. It is a bad thing. I also saw a video of a celebrity who addmited that he was watching porn for hours on end, and it is the worst addiction I have ever been trough. After finally finding a woman that is a 10/10 who also likes me and would do anything with me I discovered a problem. I am no longer turned on by a woman's body as I was... after doing anything we both could, we discovered even if I do anything to satisfy her, woman still like seing men satisfied. And that is a big problem if your penis does not learn move harden... So while I did suffer, I also learned something. You should be able to control yourself. And if you don't, you have a problem. I am not saying that everyone who reads this is like this. However I want you to ponder over it. If just one person starts to rethink, I did my purpose. I missed my chance, don't you miss yours.
As for my road. I will see where it takes me. One thing is for sure. I will not masturbate to h games and I will delete all 150GB i have. As a matter of fact one computer is allready clean. And it feels like another rock fell from my back.
Anyway, this is a great community, and I can only applaud F95 to found this. If it would not be such a hell of a obsession to me, I would like to stay with you guys for a long time, as I like discussing fetishes and whatnot. Not many places are like that.
