Anmitsu

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I know very well what is like to be depressed and afraid.
For more than 3 months recently,I was at my lowest point in life after a one-night stand whit a France girl from tinder. Let's just say that she was not too kind with her teeth on my dick and it left me a nasty scar on it...But that was not the real problem....the real problem began when I was too drunk to remember to use a condom and she did not remind me to use one. And I was having sex whit a bloody dick for more than 10-15 minutes, It was a hell of a shock to me when I change positions and got a look at what was a bloody mess down there...Long story short after that encounter I started to feel strange and was suffering from anxiety very much because I thot she gave me disease from her. When I google the symptoms it scared me half to death when I somehow believed I got all the symptoms of HIV..That made me very depressed and things got worst when you are told that the most accurate diagnostic for it is in 3 months...So I did not sleep more than 2 hours a night and started gaining weight because I was feeling sad..
I had night terrors and woke always in sweat because of it. You can imagine how that made me feel right knowing you may have a very dangerous disease that can change your life.
But you know what I did...I did not take one day off from work...hell I did not talk to anybody about this because I was so scared about what people will say.
The only time I got half a day off or a full day off work is when I want to get tested 2 times.
One time in the 73 days because I had 2 full nights whit out sleep and felt that I was gonna break mentally..the test was fine but it did not make me feel better because it was not a 100% test. The suffering continues till day 89 when the last of my test happen and I got a full test on every sexual disease know to man and that test was good but I became super anxious after this experience. When I came back 2 weeks later after hiding from a lot of people at a New Year party my really bad mental state the doctor had a look at my test result and he said I was in good health but that I seem very unstable. He did give me some meds and I took them for a week ...Until it made me feel no more emotion but it did help me sleep better.
I stop taking them after the second week because it made me feel like I'm being a zombie.. I still get sometimes the anxiety but I'm all good now.
The point of my story is. All of us were depressed or are still in a bad mental state. But that is not an excuse to just lie down and do nothing and make other pity you...That is one of the reasons you remain depressed. If you see people feel bad for you or if they want to help because of your depressions it will make you feel like you failed in being a human. I don't think anyone wants to be a burden in life but that is what you become if you embrace the Depression.

Out of 13 developers I watch, 7 of them had the same excuse of Depression or Bad mental state and only 2 of them after 3 months of receiving money decided to stop the patron support...it easy to get out of work when you don't need a legal document to see that your condition is real.
So don't accuse me of being on a high horse if you don't know me...All of us have a problem but some of us are not making excuses for it.
So you have some, uh, experience.
Well me too, not that "concentrated" but at least 10 years longer.
I tried the meds too or more like I had been forced to and they actually made me feel the best I remember ever feeling but I've stopped taking them after a year thinking "I'm fine now".
Well I wasn't, it came back though much weaker and I'm still not nearly fine but that's an another story.
I'll just say this - depression differs for every individual, symptoms, feelings, severity, duration, causes etc. so no two cases are the exact same though I'm surprised you still are able to hold such harsh outlook despite.
You have your own past and experiences and someone else has his/her own and some of those people are just not able to get out of it especially alone or at all.
Anyway, although I could go more in dept and kinda want to, this is not a place to talk about it, shouldn't have involved myself in the first place to start this discussion. No, actually I should have never involved myself in any kind of discussion on this website or better yet - on the internet in general.
Stupid fucking mistakes man.
Mods will probably remove my/our off-topic comments again and I'll get an another ban or something :WutFace:

Now to add something more in topic - as cruel as it sounds it's not like I particularly care about the mental state of some random porn game developers more than it's required for them to draw me more porn.
At the same time I obviously don't wish them anything bad either.
I think it's a reasonable approach to take when it comes down to the people you don't really know. I have never intended to attempt to defend cbob in the first place but I guess I ended up doing so anyway.
Though losing cbob's sense of humor forever would've been indeed quite sad.
I wrote that first comment because the issue he apparently struggles with is quite well known to me so I had wanted to provide some insight about how cbob may simply not be able to control his mental state so blaming him for his actions could be unjustified.
Let's just go back to talking about the porn from now on.
 
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WOMANpukumaru

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Yeah, I mean, look where we are right now guys.” Is it really THAT surprising that depression is more prevalent than corona-chan here? When you really think about it? XD

i wonder how the guy who makes a game where you enslave abuse blackmail and rape a little blind girl is doing mentally? Hmmm:rolleyes: What about the Pope eagerly waiting for more of that game? What is their mental health like? :oops:

Ok, jokes aside, this is a consistent problem for devs here, and since this basically an entire site devoted to kickstarter indie projects I kinda expect it and I think you should too.

I’m not saying lay down accept everything or whatever. I’m just saying get used to it? Relax a little

But really, this is a forum completely devoted to discussing this? What kind of activity should you expect from people who actually care enough about this to consistently come here and talk about the game not being out?

There is nothing else to discuss other than the game not being out, and how we feel about that..

This is why I’m seriapilybin favor of shutting down the threads every time there’s a hiatus. There’s simply nothing productive to be seen in these topics during that time. It always follows the same toxic pattern. But...whatever.
 

Nevrius

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Are people ever gonna stop bitching about LOK? Yes, it wasn't as good as ATLA, but it was nowhere near horrible. You wanna see something that's actually horrible? Look at Peppa Pig or Caliou. Like seriously, this is like bashing the prequels in the sequel-era.
 

baneini

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Me too and while I regret watching the first 2 seasons I don't regret watching the 2 last seasons as that bitch Korra finally got in them what she had deserved (y)
It's hard to be stimulated enough by watching children's cartoons no? I guess people do something else while they're at it.
 
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Colejsu

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Are people ever gonna stop bitching about LOK? Yes, it wasn't as good as ATLA, but it was nowhere near horrible. You wanna see something that's actually horrible? Look at Peppa Pig or Caliou. Like seriously, this is like bashing the prequels in the sequel-era.
People just dont understand that comparing things to Avatar is futile. Korra has problems but by normal metrics its still a damn good show.
 

Anmitsu

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It's hard to be stimulated enough by watching children's cartoons no? I guess people do something else while they're at it.
Yeah it is hard (or maybe I'm supposed to say that it isn't then :cautious:) that's why I'm here, to provide myself with more stimulation through witnessing some quality cartoon porn.
 

joe nemo

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Are people ever gonna stop bitching about LOK? Yes, it wasn't as good as ATLA, but it was nowhere near horrible. You wanna see something that's actually horrible? Look at Peppa Pig or Caliou. Like seriously, this is like bashing the prequels in the sequel-era.
Yea, I know, just could never get it up watching Peppa Pig.
 
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F1forhalp

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Are people ever gonna stop bitching about LOK? Yes, it wasn't as good as ATLA, but it was nowhere near horrible. You wanna see something that's actually horrible? Look at Peppa Pig or Caliou. Like seriously, this is like bashing the prequels in the sequel-era.
i do have to watch some cartoons to keep up to date with grandkids. most if not all of those i've seen, aren't up to par. your daily standard disney channel or any of the mtv offshore clones whatever, is filled with shows where you have to face hours of barbified garbage, or "people" that don't even remotely resemble drawings of humans anymore; most of those are just product placement platforms anyway.
so i ended up rather watching those Madagascar penguins for entertainment. or, rabbid invasion, or Zig&Sharko. i don't mind the violence shown in the latter but i'm old.
the whole Avatar thing started with some idea and storyline thought up and brought rather ok. it went downhill from the start, after the first merchandise sales drop. any spinoff, followup or the likes, not gonna bother. the start with the "classic" 4 basic elements approach made sense. anything after would be a combination of those, but no they had to do something about them sales ryt? meh not getting started about that..

more on topic, to have someone make a game in the lewd section based off that see-above theme, nice thing. to go and watch a show of lesser entertainment potential than this game, not my thang, no. so i won't even be able to cry over something in the game that doesn't go along some story in some show :D seen some do it. could go on but
 

Nixi~

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Hey guys, just a small update to let you know what we've been doing, though this is basically just a repeat of what Cbob already told you in , just with more pics.
But first, if you're looking for links to our projects, you can find those in our .


Korra: 'Go ahead, we're listening'

I have been working on creating the scenes for a future build(the one after the upcoming build and also a tiny bit on 18Titans. A raven and beast girl scene) but since the start of this month also on the upcoming FET build. With Cbob's slowing down that was really something which was necessary if we'd want to keep things moving at a reasonable pace.
I like my side project and it might have been better for Cbob to have taken a longer break all things considered, but let's see if I can help create the circumstances in which he can shine again. If he doesn't have to climb an entire mountain, but just a hill I hope that will make him feel more at ease while doing his part and his lists shorter.

Right now I have finished the rough draft for my part. It can be played from start to finish, but it's still missing a bunch of stuff and the dialogue needs a lot of extra attention. I'm also very tempted to start making new/more scenes for the upcoming build though it might be best if I focus on the text first.

In a little under a week Cbob and I will show each other the preliminary results of what we've been doing by ourselves so far and provide each other with some feedback. Until then I'm going to add/improve some more pics and dialogue and hope to be mostly done with that by the time I get to show it to Cbob. It's usually just me giving cbob feedback after he finishes an internal version, but this time he can tell me whether he'd like to see some changes too! Exciting!
Here's hoping his feedback won't come in the form of a flying elbow drop!
And of course I'm hoping Cbob will have been able to progress a lot too. If so, we might be able to slowly start putting it together into a single cohesive entity. I'm (at the very least) expecting Cbob to still have to do some rewriting on my part though.

Personally I'd like to have a new build out way before the end of this month but I don't know how likely or smart that is until I see what cbob has managed to do so far and whether he deems my part to be good enough! I'm crossing my fingers it won't require major reworking. I think not, but there's always that possibility.

There's nothing else to mention really... which is why I haven't written anything earlier. Since I've also gotten a few power outages this and last month I've been backing up my stuff more than ever. But that's really it as far as things which are out of the ordinary for me. Ps. It's a very hair raising moment when you're in the middle of something and all of a sudden the lights, pc, etc go dark.


Korra and Azula already stopped listening to me and are creating their own entertainment.

tldr: We're cruising along!
Marty
 
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