RPGM Henteria Chronicles Ch. 3 : The Peacekeepers [Update 16] [N_taii]

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #239: Change of plans (but you won't notice it)

Hello gentlemen and gentleladies reading this, how are you doing in this fine morning/afternoon/evening? I'm sorry this PoL is late, my working schedule is all over the place lately, and I completely forgot I was supposed to write a PoL. Also, I spent over an hour playtesting part of the update so I could finally find a suitable image for this week's PoL that wouldn't be an outright spoiler.

So, I've been having a good week's work since last Monday. I'm still not 100% back, but I'm 90% there. As always, I commissioned some stuff, and wrote a whole lot of dialogue. I'm almost done with the second scene of this update, although it is closer to a bunch of smaller scenes with the same characters and some story narration in-between, so it's taking a bit longer. Fear not, the reminiscence room version will cut all the story narration so only the spicy stuff remains for your viewing pleasure.

To adress the title, I've had a slight change of plans for how the update will shape up, although it won't affect players since they've never been told what the initial plan was. This update will have an important narrative segment at some point, and I originally wanted to make it rather short, with a bunch of images back to back and a bunch of text over it. However, I realized over the past week that it was too too important to not spend more time on it, and I started to add small scenes here and there, got more and more ideas, and before I realized it it turned into an entire story segment in itself that will take like half the update. I even came up with two interesting scenes I could squeeze in there, one of them involving Rose.

Anyway, this must sound rather confusing to you, but I can't reveal more or it'll spoil a lot of things. I just hope, as always, that you'll enjoy what Ihave in store for you for the next update. I'll see you again in a week ; )

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

 

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #240: Blurry picture, but you get the idea

Heya earthen people, how's it going in this fine morning/afternoon/evening? If it's not going well, I hope this picture of a half human body in underwear will cheer you up. I mean, what's more sexy than half a half-nude human body? A full half-nude human body?

By the way, I did good progress so far, and I'm almost done with the narration segment, which has been thoroughly up until where I'm developing right now. It's a segment I still can't talk about a lot due to possible spoilers, but I'm quite happy with it so far.

Right now, I have a bunch of scenes left, three in total. There's the one I'm doing right now, then another one with Rose, then the extra scene, and then I should be done with this update. I want it to end when Leto comes back to the city so I can add a few freeroam events and maybe an extra Triple Trident opponent. The second Rose scene will involve the picture above, which I'm sure a lot of people are excited about ; )

Also, I've just finished a new commission draft to send to the full portraits' artist so he can draw new variations. At this point, this might be the last variation for Rose and Cyanna before they switch to an entirely different outfit, because I'm slowly running out of fabric to remove^^ I haven't sent the commission yet, but I'll do it later today. With a bit of luck, they might be finished before I manage to release the update, but I wouldn't count on it too much. It'll depend on how busy the artist is.

That's it for today's PoL! I'll see you next Monday, as always ; )

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

 

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #241: Precisions about the current update and the future update

Hello, hello, hello, you... person reading this! I hope all's going well in this fine morning/afternoon/evening! If not, I pray you're at least in good enough condition that you can read this random PoL ; )

Another week, another portion of development done! I finished the story segment of this update, and I even tested everything. So far, I have three scenes done and added to the reminiscence room. It might not sound like much, but they were pretty complicated to develop, and rather long.

Now, what's left is one last scene with Rose (this one will also be somewhat long), the extra scene, and the freeroams to add afterwards. Then, I can release the new update, finally.

There are a few things I need to adress in this PoL. First of all, I want to say that Update 16 will put a bigger emphasis on story, and the spicy scenes are mostly meant to accompany that. That'll mean there won't be any huge progression in the corruption, although that isn't to say that the scenes will be boring or unoriginal. I just wanted to mention that because I feared people might have too huge expectations after seeing the last PoL's image. Also, this image isn't the only one of its kind that'll make it into the new update. Just saying.

In this regard, I also want the next update to be about the main quest, but put a bit more emphasis on the spicy parts rather than story. This time If we were talking about an anime or a series, it'd be a filler episode, like the lake episode in HC2 (for those who remember). It'd be nice to have something a bit more light-hearted after Update 16 (as light-hearted as NTR can be).

That's it for this PoL! I'll see you again next week ; )

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

 

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #242: Some more Rose, and no ETA yet but soon, I promise!

Some might feel intrigued by this PoL’s image, while it might rub others the wrong way. It is just a small part of the new scene. The rest is either with the Duke or Rose alone.

Heya everynyan, how are you doing in this fine morning/afternoon/evening? This PoL is coming a bit late, but I hope it’ll be a good read.

I’ve had a relatively good week of work, at least for the first half. I’m currently in the process and moving into a new apartment and nothing seems to be going right, so I’ve been very busy with taking care of things. Last Friday I’ve spent 3 hours and a half on the phone trying to get a new phone number and my internet working. The reason why today’s PoL is coming out a lot later than usual is because I’ve been away all day buying stuff for the apartment, setting it up, etc… so I have had very little time to work on the game.

I’ve just finished Rose’s last scene. That was quite a sizeable scene, with like around 3 smaller scenes crammed into one, so more like a whole event than a scene. I think it turned out pretty well. I even managed to get a few new spicy animations never seen before in there. I still need to test it though.

I hoped I could get a new full-body portraits for Rose and Cyanna for this update, but it doesn’t look like it’ll be possible. I think the artist is either too busy or he’s sick. Anyway, he told me it’d take time before he could get to it.

For now, all that’s left is testing Rose’s scene, add the last extra scene, the freeroams, and I’ll be good to go. I can’t give a proper ETA because I haven’t decided the contents of the extra scene, and I’m still busy with moving and all, but I want to have a proper ETA somewhere within the upcoming week, either by making a special post, or in the next PoL.

Once again, I want to apologize for the time it’s taking. It should go faster once I’ve settled down into my new place and I can finally return to a normal working schedule. Thanks guys for the support, much appreciated. I’ll see you next week!

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

 

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #243: Last PoL before the next update!

Hello, hello people, how are you doing in this fine morning/afternoon/evening? Good? That's awesome! Bad? I hope to provide some distraction with this PoL, as well as something to look forward to!

So, you've seen the title, you know what I'm going to say. The main content of the update is done and (almost) fully tested, save for part of the last extra scene. There's still a bunch of things left to do: add the scenes to the reminiscence room, update the walkthrough, add the freeroams (3 in total, 2 for Cyanna and 1 for Rose because Cyanna is far behind in amount of freeroams) and a new triple trident opponent, among other things, but I'm fairly confident I'll have it all done by the end of the week.

There's just one issue: I'm fairly behind on commissions. One artist, who's been my main artist so far, has been piling up delays after delays lately, and I haven't heard anything from him since I gave him a small commission he told me he'd finish by Tuesday last week. As you can expect, that kind of threw a wrench in my plans and schedule. I've tried to rely on two other artists to help me fill in the gaps, but they've also got their own schedule. Hopefully, they'll manage to finish all the custom sprites I still need for this update by the weekend.

I'm also pretty certain there won't be new full-size portraits in this update. I'm having a hard time getting the artist to answer my emails, let alone give me a rough ETA on the portraits' completion. All I know is he can't work on it right now. As much as I love his art, I'm contemplating hiring someone else for the next games, because working with reliable people is paramount in this line of work. I can tolerate delays, we're all humans, but being kept in the dark or outright ignored is something I have a hard time dealing with.

Anyway, you're not here to hear my rant. I just wanted to give you an update on the state of things and how uncertain things still were for update 16.

You might also be wondering what's the illustration for this PoL. To keep it spoiler-free, this one is directly associated with the story part of the update. Pretty heavy stuff. Someone's past.

Anyway, sorry for the bitter-sweet PoL. Some good news, some bad, that's how life goes. I hope (I really do) to see you again before the next PoL for the actual release of Update 16!

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

PS: I finally have my own home, which allows me to work a lot more efficiently than before, so there's that at least^^

 

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #244: Early PoL + Update available for Grunt tier (5$) Patrons!

Hello everyone, how is it going in this fine morning/afternoon/evening?

I'm writing this PoL early because in a few hours I'll be in a plane headed for another continent. My father is taking a week's vacation to celebrate his retirement and is taking me along for the ride. I should have access to Wifi over there, which means I could technically post the PoL on Monday, but I don't wanna risk it and have you guys worry if I don't post anything.

It's going to be a chill vacation by the beach, which means that I should have plenty of time to work on the game as usual. I'm not much of a swimmer anyway. I've had a stroke of bad luck this morning as my main laptop's charger kind of fried and was rendered useless, which means I'll have to take my backup laptop on vacation, a very crappy one, the kind that freezes for a few seconds whenever I try to open a new tab on Google or switch a YT video to full screen. It'll do though, at least until next week. Better than nothing.

As for the update, I've been working on it all week. As per popular demand, I've decided to add Haylen and Lily to this beach update, which means I'll need to have bigger maps. Mapping is what I intend to do while I'm away. Lily and Haylen will mainly have freeroams for this update though (if you have gone far enough in their storylines), because I want the focus to remain on Rose and Cyanna.

As far as I can tell, this update is shaping up to be quite the workload. Don't be alarmed if I'm not very active anywhere until next Monday, because with the laptop I have right now, doing anything on it is a pain in the A, so I'll probably focus on development with a few YT videos in the background. See you on the 11th!

Btw, as per the title, the new update is available to 5$ tier Patrons now ; )

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

 

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #245: They say an image is worth a thousand words, but what about four of them?

Heya heya you cat, dog, and bird people, how are you doing in this fine morning/afternoon/evening? I'm finally back from my trip! Btw, I was in Egypt. I barely got tanned though. Why? Because I was working as usual.

I was already very late for the last update because of my moving back to my homecountry from Japan and looking for an apartment, so my condition for tagging along to Egypt was that I could be left alone to work on HC3 whenever I wanted. Unfortunately, the wifi was terrible and my crappy laptop made working very difficult.

Still, I managed to do most of the maps for the new update, although there could be some more I need to do based on how the story progresses in this update. You can see some of them in this PoL's screenshots, although a few are still a work-in-progress and need some more assets. I also managed to hand out a bunch of commissions to artists and receive swimsuits for the guy and girls alike. They all have lewd versions, although Lily and Haylen's will only be available if you've progressed their storyline far enough. Who am I kidding though? We all know you're dying to see the Duke wearing a sexy bikini~

The artist curse is still going strong, as one of them is still missing in action and has been so for over a month now, and two others have had to take vacations for 1-2 weeks. I've asked other artists if they could take over for the time being. I hope things will settle down soon enough.

That's it for this PoL. I'm going back to working on sexy beach babes for now. I'll see you next Monday~

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

 

[BBC King]

Proof of Life #246: Who wouldn't want a nice vacation under the sun?

Hello everyone, how's it going in this fine morning/afternoon/evening? I apologize for this PoL being a bit late, I had to prepare a few things before I could finally get the screenshot I wanted to show. I know you've been dying to see the Duke in a swimsuit, so here it is, although he can only be seen from the back.

I've had a good week of work, although some of my weekend was busy with an irl project of mine, so I had a bit less time to work on the game. Still, I managed to progress quite a bit, and every character, side and main, has had a small scene added for them. I'm still waiting on the visuals for those scenes though, but they should be coming shortly.

Working with Haylen and Lily takes a bit more time during testing, as I have to test several variations (whether the player has partial or omniscient PoV on, and whether they've progressed far enough to see their content) and I've sometimes added slight dialogue variations based on players' progress within their storyline.

I initially hoped I could make this update on the shorter side so I could release it earlier, but it's shaping up to be a long one I believe. I really want to take this opportunity with everyone living in the same building to add a lot of shorter scenes, or just an animation happening behind a window to highlight how much corruption has progressed, and that for all four women, but that means a lot of work implementing those in, even if they'll only be seen for a few seconds. Still, I believe it'll all be worth it in the end.

In the screenshot above, you can see some of the custom visuals made especially for this update, and there's even a breastroke animation and a "swim in place" animation for the characters if I need it. I might showcase it later.

That's it for this PoL! I'll see you again next Monday for more beach vacation shenanigans ; )

Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!

N_Taii

 

[Oriandu]

It's been a while since I've played HC2 and Noa certainly wasn't the brightest bulb, but how I interpreted those scenes was that Noa had been beaten down so far psychologically and emotionally that he had begun dissociating from what was going on around him. It wasn't just mere denial or that he was really that stupid, it was a trauma response from what he'd been through. As I recall the lake scenes were much further into the story arc than we are now, with Noa's memory and perceptions having been wrung through by the antagonists. For me that's darker than even having an actual demon wave a magic wand to make the protagonist confused. Leto on the other hand has waded perhaps waist-deep into the Egyptian River as far as the girls are concerned, so I don't think it's likely we'll see similar scenes.



Just as an aside, and I like the steady "slow-burn" NTR too, do we really need to insist on a rigid set of corruption milestones for the heroines to pass during the story? It may not suit the characters or the circumstances, it ties the creator's hands, leaves nothing to surprise and nothing else to anticipate. I know it's convention for these games now, but I can't help but think it's just in order to create a neatly organised scene gallery for those that aren't going to play through the game anyway. Galleries are an adjunct in my opinion, they should serve the game, and not the other way around.



Well, if we're going to spoiler our speculations then -

Spoiler: Entirely gratuitous self-interestedness

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I've been replaying HC2 in bits and pieces and I recently got to the lake scene, and I wouldn't refer to Noah as as traumatized enough to glaze over sex happening right in front of him, in fact I'd say the lake episode happened roughly at the same point in the story that HC3 is currently at. It happened shortly after Noah's first encounter with Zeno's villainous plans for the village and his first humiliation when Zeno managed to cover his tracks. It was the first major thing to happen after Celis and Aywin started having sex with their villainous counterparts. But it came before things ramped up... which is kinda where the story is at at the end of update 16. You can't do a direct corelation because Leto is far less connected to the duke's conspiracy than Noah was to his uncle's, but HC3 is far slower burn than HC2 was and I'd say that we're at roughly the same overall corruption and story progression level at this stage as the women were in HC2. Hell, if I'm remembering correctly I think once update 17 releases that'll be more updates to HC3 and HC2 got total, so story beats defintely aren't going to line up exactly.

Noah missing the sex happening so close to him works because he had very little established personality outside of being extremely naive. It worked for him, it won't work for Leto for two reasons. First, I don't think he's in denial about his girlfriend, sister, foster mother, and best friend so much as he hasn't really been exposed to much of a reason to be suspicious of them. He may have noticed some changes in personality and appearance but what he's seen hasn't been enough for him to say "There's something going on here." because he's not around the events or their behaviour enough to see have a reason to be suspicious. The second reason those kind of scenes won't work is if something happens right in front of him he'd have to be drunk, as you mentioned, or in some way incapacitated to not notice it because we've seen him recognize and be uncomfortable with others having sex mulitple times already, it's his most consistent emotional response so far.

I'm 100% on the "This is a filler episode, let it be lighthearted" train, I just don't want it to be stupid.

As for the corruption checklist... I don't necessarily expect things to take a defined path or that N_Taii is following an order. Rose just has like two major sex acts left that she hasn't done.

 

[Jeferss12]

We have to say that by far Haylen and Cyanna have the best body of the four, then there would be Rose and finally Lily XD.


In HC2, in my opinion, the one with the best body was Noa's mother, but damn, the author didn't want to give us sex scenes between Noa and her mother.

Can you imagine it would be a tremendous revelation that Leto's parents and the girl who was like an older sister to him were still alive, I say this because well, they were never able to find their bodies.

 

[Miss Y]

Well, I finally got around to playing Update 16, and I'll try to keep my thoughts shorter than usual. It was... mostly okay. Not nearly the same lows of frustration as the undercover brothel quest. Most of the scenes were good on their own, and I really liked the big reveal, so that it feels like there is finally some movement for the main mystery. But as a whole, the pacing felt absolutely brutal with how little there was in the way of having any chance to explore or interact with the game as Leto between cutscenes to break things up a little. And specifically about the big spoilers,

Spoiler: Update 16 story stuff

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As for Update 17, those previews look promising so far! The lake trip of Chapter 2 was a real low point for me in the game, personally, but I think a lot of that came down to how there really wasn't much chemistry between Aywin and Celis, so it didn't feel particularly lighthearted or fun. But there is a lot more potential between the girls this time to have some amusing banter, or even a few petty rivalries pop up beyond the much heavier Rose/Cyanna one we've already seen of them fighting over Leto.

My one central hope for the beach quest is for Leto to actually notice something for once. I'm not expecting him to suddenly discover the NTR going on behind his back, but it would be nice for him to have a more interesting reaction to the sexually-charged atmosphere for once instead of him being completely unfazed by it — or the more likely bet I'd make, of him just being briefly startled by the swimsuit reveal before instantly getting over it and proceeding as normal.

 

[Oriandu]

Honestly, after update 16 I'm hoping update 17 is pretty brainless. I do want Leto to notice that something strange is going on but nothing too impacting simply because of how heavy update 16 was. The game needs light hearted beach fun...

You know, I realize that I haven't played the NTRRPGs before. Are they actually any good? I know they inspired the HC games but I've honestly never heard that much about them.

 

[Jeferss12]

Honestly, after update 16 I'm hoping update 17 is pretty brainless. I do want Leto to notice that something strange is going on but nothing too impacting simply because of how heavy update 16 was. The game needs light hearted beach fun...

You know, I realize that I haven't played the NTRRPGs before. Are they actually any good? I know they inspired the HC games but I've honestly never heard that much about them.

the truth in update 17 if all the girls were to disappear at the same time, to be with the villains, it is impossible that even someone as naive as Leto, would not begin to suspect something bad is happening, well that is what I think, although if something were to happen like what a previous comment said, that they are in the middle of a beach vacation and everyone takes refuge in the hotel for about two days and the girls spend that time avoiding Leto to have sex, I would not like that development to happen, because all there would be in the hotel are sounds of people having sex, and Leto is one of the HC characters that we have seen has been exposed to the sexual acts of people, then it would be senseless that despite his naivety he did not realize that they are the ones having sex with the villains, Unless there is always a girl or someone who is with Leto while the others are having sex during that period of time, and the presence of this girl or someone in the hotel who will spend that time with Leto distracting him and decreasing his suspicions that something is happening, possibly perhaps a maid of the Duke or something like that to whom the Duke has given that order..

As for NTRRPGs, I honestly haven't played them, but I've seen several gameplays and in my opinion the women are much more stupid and brainless than in anything I've played from HC, and the scenes are much heavier and forced to humiliate the protagonist than what would be a good voyeur where the act focuses on sex between the girl and the villain, instead of the degradation and humiliation of the protagonist.

 

[Miss Y]

Honestly, after update 16 I'm hoping update 17 is pretty brainless. I do want Leto to notice that something strange is going on but nothing too impacting simply because of how heavy update 16 was. The game needs light hearted beach fun...

I fully agree with this, because I think we are at the point in the game where it can't really linger on the big reveal without feeling like procrastination... so if it's not going to be the pivotal quest where Leto realizes what is happening (and the previews haven't given that impression at all), then I would find it way more enjoyable for the update to aim for a very different tone instead of trying to be one more incremental step in the corruption.

And I think that is why my brain is so fixated on Leto's role, because he desperately needs some kind of development to sell the idea that things are starting to change. That even if he is still oblivious to the actual NTR, he knows ~something~ is different from how things were before. And having him start to show more interest in Cyanna, Haylen, and Lily would fill that gap perfectly, that their behavior is affecting him more than he can consciously realize, and that he might reflexively pull back out of guilt for looking at them in a sexual way... and leave them fully vulnerable to the villains filling that emotional void in his absence. As opposed to the girls just deciding on their own to care less about Leto while he continues to passively stand around.

You know, I realize that I haven't played the NTRRPGs before. Are they actually any good? I know they inspired the HC games but I've honestly never heard that much about them.

I've only played NTRPG2, and it's... complicated. As my first experience with an NTR game using sprite animations instead of more typical static CG scenes, it was downright revolutionary and altered my brain chemistry on a fundamental level. I wholly credit that and Scars of Summer being the two pivotal games that sparked my interest in the whole NTR genre. But having played more recent games, I don't think the character sprites have aged super well, which is really unfortunate. They're better than a lot of games that just use the default RPG Maker proportions, but still have a "squat and boxy" look to them that makes most of the characters blend together outside of hair colors.

Oh, and the villain is downright insufferable as far as I'm concerned. If you think Zeno, Edwyr, or Ulrod are sometimes hard to take seriously, then I don't think you'll enjoy the antagonist of NTRPG2 much at all because he comes off like a character that was written by a middle-schooler who just started reading Berserk.

tl;dr — it's worth checking out if you are bored, but I think it is best to go in with the expectation that it is very much an early prototype of the genre, and not some shining pinnacle that Henteria is still trying to reach.

 

[Oriandu]

When it comes to Leto actually noticing something during update 17, if it does happen I want it to go one of two ways. First, he notices that the women and the other men are gone a lot and he thinks that's a little odd, but it's not enough for him to put two and two together. Second, he has at least one moment where they're all fucking but he assumes it's the men with the maids the duke brings along or something like that because the girls gave some kind of "we're going on a girls only hike" earlier, and just goes to the beach where Rose and the duke are fucking just out of sight in a semi-public place but he doesn't notice and dozes off on a beach chair. I want the sex scenes to circle him like vultures and all he notices is the fact that the girls are often missing. Though on the other side of the coin I'm hoping the duke uses Leto's presence to talk Rose into taking a creampie so Leto doesn't see her covered in jizz.

I would want that to be the case even if the expectation wasn't for 17 to be a light hearted filler arc. Update 16 was pretty heavy and its set up involved Leto noticing a connection between the suspicious goings on in the city and the duke, so we're coming off a double dose of Leto showing competency which is good for the not so distant point where everything breaks.

 

[gordovalor]

When it comes to Leto actually noticing something during update 17, if it does happen I want it to go one of two ways. First, he notices that the women and the other men are gone a lot and he thinks that's a little odd, but it's not enough for him to put two and two together. Second, he has at least one moment where they're all fucking but he assumes it's the men with the maids the duke brings along or something like that because the girls gave some kind of "we're going on a girls only hike" earlier, and just goes to the beach where Rose and the duke are fucking just out of sight in a semi-public place but he doesn't notice and dozes off on a beach chair. I want the sex scenes to circle him like vultures and all he notices is the fact that the girls are often missing. Though on the other side of the coin I'm hoping the duke uses Leto's presence to talk Rose into taking a creampie so Leto doesn't see her covered in jizz.

I would want that to be the case even if the expectation wasn't for 17 to be a light hearted filler arc. Update 16 was pretty heavy and its set up involved Leto noticing a connection between the suspicious goings on in the city and the duke, so we're coming off a double dose of Leto showing competency which is good for the not so distant point where everything breaks.

It's good that Leto brings some competition. To me, a woman involved in netorare is like dodging a bullet, but it's refreshing to see him put up a fight, it makes the story more engaging than just watching the poor guy lose his romantic interests right in front of him.

 

[niifan]

date for public release?

 

[quandin]

date for public release?

Release was on 28 October, 25 days have passed so probably in the next week

 

[Oriandu]

There's always a chance N_Taii releases it a little early as he has done in the past, but expect Thursday.

 

[bucefala]

I've been replaying HC2 in bits and pieces and I recently got to the lake scene, and I wouldn't refer to Noah as as traumatized enough to glaze over sex happening right in front of him, in fact I'd say the lake episode happened roughly at the same point in the story that HC3 is currently at. It happened shortly after Noah's first encounter with Zeno's villainous plans for the village and his first humiliation when Zeno managed to cover his tracks. It was the first major thing to happen after Celis and Aywin started having sex with their villainous counterparts. But it came before things ramped up... which is kinda where the story is at at the end of update 16. You can't do a direct corelation because Leto is far less connected to the duke's conspiracy than Noah was to his uncle's, but HC3 is far slower burn than HC2 was and I'd say that we're at roughly the same overall corruption and story progression level at this stage as the women were in HC2. Hell, if I'm remembering correctly I think once update 17 releases that'll be more updates to HC3 and HC2 got total, so story beats defintely aren't going to line up exactly.

His father died at that point, recently, he lost the trust of his closed ones and is looked at as a fool and had to work himself to the bone and humiliate himself just to earn Zeno's trust again. He was in heavy distress, his mother and sister always missing and him becoming more and more alone. He definely had some denial in him to cope with the change of the heroines that were his only family and hope at that point. We even get confirmation when we see his thought after seeing that blue haired girl that liked him get blowbanged in the soldier camp late game. He activelly supressed any suspicion he had just to stay above the water.

I dont get how people keep saying he has no personality. I had the most sympathy for him than maybe any other ficticious protagonist. And its not just self insertion, I do not see myself in him, I see a kind and sweet and adorable soul.