As much as I liked to play this game - I must
stop playing it.
Instead of feeling relaxed and entertainet, I feel
hate and
anger.
I caught myself punshing a wall on my way out to get some fresh air.
You might think at first I´m this because of the lack of lewdness & the teasing etc in the game, but I can
ensure you that this isnt the problem
at all.
It´s because of certain characters (2 atm). The more the story of this otherwise great game unfolds, the more
hate &
anger I feel. I dont like it at all to feel like this. It makes me think how much I would like to do something about them just to save the innocent (current and future) - no matter the cost for myself.
Sometimes vigilante justice sounds damn tempting and appropriate. One personal sacrifice for the good of everyone else.
I know - it just a otherwise great game and it´s
idiotic, stupid and silly to feel like I feel after playing it, but I can´t help it. This game brings out those hate & anger feelings in me. Therefore I need to stop playing it - for my own good & mental health
But I keep an eye on this game and the posts here and if in the future someone tells me that those certain 2 characters died (
hopefully a slooooow & painfull death - not just simply jail or something like that) - maybe then I play it again - just for my own mental health.
Just to see that this world isn´t completly without hope and worth saving. That even lewd-game developer arent deeply depraved - influenced by deeply depraved media nowadays in this deply deraved world. Where using & killing the innocent is okay as long as you can use power & money to get away with it. If you know what I mean....
I know, depressing deep shit etc. I just needed to let it out somehow - again for my own mental health hehe
Dont take my words
to serious - I just needed to vent my (
totaly inappropriate) thoughts. It´s night where I life and all who could listen to me venting are not available atm.
Maybe I should not post this - but then, maybe I should - maybe someone reads my vented shit and feels similar and gets at ease that he isn´t alone with such thought & feelings about games, media nowadays and the depraved world. At ease that
if you talk about it and vent sometimes -
it´s better - for the mental health
Thanks for listening and not judging (or commenting)
. Just listening is sometimes all it needs - you know.
*posting or not posting - what do I do*
if you read this, I decided to take the risc of posting this depressing deep shit - sorry not sorry? but maybe it helps others too - you never know.
The fact that I took some time to think about it and even fermated this post should let you know I vented enough and I´m at ease by now - with the game, the media, the world and my own mental health hehe
And somehow I feel sorry about that my deep shit explosion happend here and after playing this otherwise great game.
Again: Thanks for listening and not judging (or commenting).