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Hello everyone, thanks for taking the time to click on this... I don't know if this belongs here, but I couldn't think of another place for it.
Let me start by introducing myself. My name is John. I go by The Typist, you know, because I like to type... The reason I'm writing this is because there are times I feel very down during the developing process and I always go searching for motivation that exists, but is quite sparse in this area of creative content.
I'm 21 years of age, my birthday recently passed this January. I have a girlfriend... or well, had a girlfriend for a really long time. 2 and 1/2 years is long for me! Haha.
This is important, bare with me here.
A long ways back, I think I was about 13 or so, I discovered porn games. I was browsing through newgrounds where I used to play that one stickman game where you'd shoot those arrows at each other and my god those were some simple times. No worries, happy family, and a whole lot of free time.
While browsing the site one day, I discovered this random 2d game with ugly character design where you played as this guy who would use a fishing pole to remove womans clothes... That day lead me into the wonderful world of porn games...
Throughout the years I'd live a simple life, I grew up, went to school, had girlfriends, everything was fine. Eventually got my first few jobs and started saving. I always played resident evil games and the sims and thought, "man, it'd be awesome if they were in porn..." and curious me found a lot of what I was looking for. But this also lead me to the discovery of The Sharks Lagoon. And my god I had endless options it seemed. People today reminisce with me and look back at those simpler times where stripping a girl in bed was as hot as it got.
This eventually lead me to the better discovery of F95zone.com, the website that has arguably changed my life more than any other site possibly can. I started with games like Big Brother, Man of the House, learned I had weird kinks about sharing and dating your fake siblings, feelings I had no idea I could feel lol.
Then I wondered "Man, it'd be so cool to make my own game..." so I took on the impossible task. Become a developer myself.
Here's where the fun begins
I took up learning daz studio, started buying assets with what little money I had, learned whatever I could about my new program. Started making my own renders that I wanted to make, they were dogshit bad, but they were renders none the less.
Tested a few character models I thought were GREAT, only to have everyone shit on them lol. That was a bad feeling... but I continued anyways with new ones. Found out I didn't have to pay for everything I needed, got more assets, and immediately created more and more.
It took me 8 MONTHS to be satisfied with my main character, Claire... She was everything I wanted her to be, and more lol. Then it hit me. How do I even make this shit into a game? Let alone a half decent one. I have zero experience in coding what so ever... so what did I do? I manned the fuck up and learned how to code goddammit haha. It took me about 15 days to learn the very basics of RENPY, which made me very happy. It was enough to get by. To this day I still am unsure if i'm doing anything correctly or efficiently, but hey, it's making a game so okay.
Then, I made my first version of Because I Love Her. I played it, liked it, and became brave enough to release it. I figured "Hey, I don't need money, i'm happy with my life. All that matters is that if just one person likes it, I'll be very happy."
And holy shit, a lot of people liked what I made! My clueless self with no experience made a game, and they like it? Cool."
Then they asked for more. Okay, they want more, cool I'll give them more! So I go in and make more and release a patch not much long after. They liked that too, but some folks really, really didn't like that... at all.... and they made it loud and clear.
And thus, my first negative experiences came along, and boy did they get to me. I thought about dropping the game and moving on with my life. But then I started to see my fans shine through... and they pulled me right back up.
Here is what I believe everyone needs to hear.
No matter what the negative folks say, there will almost ALWAYS be someone who likes what you do. And you, as well as I, must remind ourselves that that is what is important to us. They are our friends, and we must be a good friend back and give them more. They like what we're putting out, why let the haters change that for you, it's unfair to the folks who love you and your work, and they will feel betrayed or hurt if you listen to all the hate...
The hate we receive is often voiced much louder than the love we receive. And often times we let that get to us.
In my case, I have dealt with hate, and criticism. I had my personal life fall apart when my dad left my family 2 months ago and broke my own heart, leaving me feeling betrayed and worthless. I invested 800 dollars into a brand new GPU, a few hundred more into ram and PSU and whatever I can to be better at what I do. My girlfriend took notice and always questioned me, eventually finding out why I've been up till 6 am 5 days in a row trying to work out and update. She recently left me for that sole reason, and I was hurt, and honestly still am... Hence the random rant and blog style post.
But what you all need to remember, is there are always gonna be people who look up to you, and appreciate the work you do. They know this is your hobby. They understand it is your first time. They welcome you to the forums, and bring life into you that you didn't know you needed.
I've met supporters whom I actually feel close to. I've made friends here and learned a lot, and while the community may seem toxic, this really is the best group of people I've ever stumbled upon, as they are all humans too. We all have our kinks, and we are here to expand our knowledge of said kinks and grow to learn more about ourselves, and others.
If you are thinking about developing, or are developing and thinking about giving up sometimes, Don't do that.
Someone is always willing to take the time to play your game and enjoy what you have taken precious time out of your life to create. Some may make a career out of it, and that is always great. But do not ever come here hoping to make a quick buck, thinking people just throw there money around.
Respect your audience, appreciate those who like your work, and take your time when you feel you aren't satisfied with how things are going. Reflection is key, but do not fall into that state of "I can't do this anymore, they just don't like it... I suck at this..." Because god, it is hard to get out of that state of mind. Face criticism, love it, feed off of it, and move on. You'll always have a fan, if you forget that, remember me. Because I now know what it's like to be on the other side, and I have so much respect and appreciation for the fact that you took the time to work up the courage to release a game, constructed only from your own imagination. Props to you and your success in the future. I wish you only the best of luck, and keep on keeping on my guys and girls of the porn game community. - Sincerely
John... AKA, TheTypist
Let me start by introducing myself. My name is John. I go by The Typist, you know, because I like to type... The reason I'm writing this is because there are times I feel very down during the developing process and I always go searching for motivation that exists, but is quite sparse in this area of creative content.
I'm 21 years of age, my birthday recently passed this January. I have a girlfriend... or well, had a girlfriend for a really long time. 2 and 1/2 years is long for me! Haha.
This is important, bare with me here.
A long ways back, I think I was about 13 or so, I discovered porn games. I was browsing through newgrounds where I used to play that one stickman game where you'd shoot those arrows at each other and my god those were some simple times. No worries, happy family, and a whole lot of free time.
While browsing the site one day, I discovered this random 2d game with ugly character design where you played as this guy who would use a fishing pole to remove womans clothes... That day lead me into the wonderful world of porn games...
Throughout the years I'd live a simple life, I grew up, went to school, had girlfriends, everything was fine. Eventually got my first few jobs and started saving. I always played resident evil games and the sims and thought, "man, it'd be awesome if they were in porn..." and curious me found a lot of what I was looking for. But this also lead me to the discovery of The Sharks Lagoon. And my god I had endless options it seemed. People today reminisce with me and look back at those simpler times where stripping a girl in bed was as hot as it got.
This eventually lead me to the better discovery of F95zone.com, the website that has arguably changed my life more than any other site possibly can. I started with games like Big Brother, Man of the House, learned I had weird kinks about sharing and dating your fake siblings, feelings I had no idea I could feel lol.
Then I wondered "Man, it'd be so cool to make my own game..." so I took on the impossible task. Become a developer myself.
Here's where the fun begins
I took up learning daz studio, started buying assets with what little money I had, learned whatever I could about my new program. Started making my own renders that I wanted to make, they were dogshit bad, but they were renders none the less.
Tested a few character models I thought were GREAT, only to have everyone shit on them lol. That was a bad feeling... but I continued anyways with new ones. Found out I didn't have to pay for everything I needed, got more assets, and immediately created more and more.
It took me 8 MONTHS to be satisfied with my main character, Claire... She was everything I wanted her to be, and more lol. Then it hit me. How do I even make this shit into a game? Let alone a half decent one. I have zero experience in coding what so ever... so what did I do? I manned the fuck up and learned how to code goddammit haha. It took me about 15 days to learn the very basics of RENPY, which made me very happy. It was enough to get by. To this day I still am unsure if i'm doing anything correctly or efficiently, but hey, it's making a game so okay.
Then, I made my first version of Because I Love Her. I played it, liked it, and became brave enough to release it. I figured "Hey, I don't need money, i'm happy with my life. All that matters is that if just one person likes it, I'll be very happy."
And holy shit, a lot of people liked what I made! My clueless self with no experience made a game, and they like it? Cool."
Then they asked for more. Okay, they want more, cool I'll give them more! So I go in and make more and release a patch not much long after. They liked that too, but some folks really, really didn't like that... at all.... and they made it loud and clear.
And thus, my first negative experiences came along, and boy did they get to me. I thought about dropping the game and moving on with my life. But then I started to see my fans shine through... and they pulled me right back up.
Here is what I believe everyone needs to hear.
No matter what the negative folks say, there will almost ALWAYS be someone who likes what you do. And you, as well as I, must remind ourselves that that is what is important to us. They are our friends, and we must be a good friend back and give them more. They like what we're putting out, why let the haters change that for you, it's unfair to the folks who love you and your work, and they will feel betrayed or hurt if you listen to all the hate...
The hate we receive is often voiced much louder than the love we receive. And often times we let that get to us.
In my case, I have dealt with hate, and criticism. I had my personal life fall apart when my dad left my family 2 months ago and broke my own heart, leaving me feeling betrayed and worthless. I invested 800 dollars into a brand new GPU, a few hundred more into ram and PSU and whatever I can to be better at what I do. My girlfriend took notice and always questioned me, eventually finding out why I've been up till 6 am 5 days in a row trying to work out and update. She recently left me for that sole reason, and I was hurt, and honestly still am... Hence the random rant and blog style post.
But what you all need to remember, is there are always gonna be people who look up to you, and appreciate the work you do. They know this is your hobby. They understand it is your first time. They welcome you to the forums, and bring life into you that you didn't know you needed.
I've met supporters whom I actually feel close to. I've made friends here and learned a lot, and while the community may seem toxic, this really is the best group of people I've ever stumbled upon, as they are all humans too. We all have our kinks, and we are here to expand our knowledge of said kinks and grow to learn more about ourselves, and others.
If you are thinking about developing, or are developing and thinking about giving up sometimes, Don't do that.
Someone is always willing to take the time to play your game and enjoy what you have taken precious time out of your life to create. Some may make a career out of it, and that is always great. But do not ever come here hoping to make a quick buck, thinking people just throw there money around.
Respect your audience, appreciate those who like your work, and take your time when you feel you aren't satisfied with how things are going. Reflection is key, but do not fall into that state of "I can't do this anymore, they just don't like it... I suck at this..." Because god, it is hard to get out of that state of mind. Face criticism, love it, feed off of it, and move on. You'll always have a fan, if you forget that, remember me. Because I now know what it's like to be on the other side, and I have so much respect and appreciation for the fact that you took the time to work up the courage to release a game, constructed only from your own imagination. Props to you and your success in the future. I wish you only the best of luck, and keep on keeping on my guys and girls of the porn game community. - Sincerely
John... AKA, TheTypist
