Again, fair.
Matador was at least an actual response to something someone else had done (
Yumi’s bullying of Futaba), instead of just being Nodoka inflicting the games in her head on other people (cf, everything else she does).
And I have no objection your honor; I won't defend for Nodoka's righteousness when there is none in a case like this, let alone endorse the level of revenge she dished out.
Why I framed my thought on
Matador like that is because I believed there is more to Nodoka’s revenge on Yumi than just “because she can”, and that is a combination of hateful thoughts like “you haven’t really been taught a lesson for all you have done to my loved one yet”, “I will hurt you as much as I can, just like what you did to her”, "I need to see how sorry you actually are with my own eyes", and “even if Futaba’s forgiven you, I HAVE NOT” (the last one is especially prominent in my eyes because Futaba has always been a
weakling softie, someone either incapable of or unwilling to properly hate and punish those that deserve, and constantly lets them off the hook way too easily). Even if they are self-centered or self-righteous, thoughts like these and the subsequent extreme vengeance make Nodoka a living human being for once. That is her human moment, even if it was revealed via a very very unnecessarily cruel segue.
If I, Fdsasdf Fukuyama, dear Futaba's imaginary siscon psychopath onichan, who's been worried sick about my timid imouto's bully issues and who's been wanting to stab Yumi 23 times for this had the opportunity came sooner, suddenly got told one day (by Futaba herself, no less) that it's all no problemo now with seemingly no tangible closure whatsoever. And that's it? How could she accept this? How could I accept this? How would I dissipate
my anger that's been boiling ever since I found out your pain and suffering? Would I not do the same thing Nodoka did, or would I not do something even worse than
Matador?
Everything up there is over the top, all of them. But when it comes to revenge stemmed from love too deep, twisted, and suffocating, rational and reasonable solutions are not a concern. Just for a brief moment, thoughts like those lower Nodoka's maliciousness meter from incomprehensible calamity to a mere directional cruel person, and that is all I ask because you really can't ask a tad more from Nodoka.
