Fire Lord Zuko
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Holy hell… That was the best Ami deconstruction I’ve ever read. Serious props putting this together, man! I’m also really excited for what the future holds for our beloved redheaded niece.Following that Ami discussion, I went back and looked at a few of her events, and yeah - if you put aside the fact that there's a lot of filler that sort of dilutes it, her character is probably one of the most solid in the series thematically.
Point One: Ami is still deeply traumatized about her parent's death - and while Sensei does make her somewhat less lonely, it's something she's nowhere even close to getting over.
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Point Two: Her inability to move on has translated into severe abandonment issues. She's desperately afraid of being left alone, like her parents did to her when they died.
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Point Three: Her abandonment issues manifests in several ways, first is her desire to keep her uncle safe, which becomes borderline psychotic the more unwell Sensei is, such as starting to think everyone is out to get them.
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Though, keep in mind that taking care of him in these sort of "states" is very damaging to Ami. In one of the earlier scenes, Ami comes home after a normal day at school and finds her Uncle in the middle of a breakdown, and you can see how terrified she is. But ultimately, she needs to stay strong for him.
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Even later in the game, where she's a lot more unhinged due to her abandonment fears growing, you can still see how she has to cope when her Uncle enters these states. She talks to herself, creates imaginary conversations with Sensei, and even hears voices.
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Point Four: The second way it manifests is her trying to become what Sensei wants - Sekai. This takes the form of looking like her and acting like her, such as her recent moves into poetry.
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Now there's an inherent contradiction with what Ami wants:
This is why she was so excited when she was able to create the safe space for him after Maya died, because it seemed like both of Ami's desires could coexist - staying with Ami and not leaving her side is how Sensei becomes mentally well, and it's actually the outside world that is damaging him. This is her happy ending, where Sensei stays with her forever and won't randomly breakdown.
- Ami doesn't want to be lonely and wants Sensei to never leave her side due to her abandonment issues.
- But she also wants Sensei to stay safe and mentally well and not end up damaged or hurt.
But, this falls apart when Ami realizes that these two things are not necessarily compatible nor possible.
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Sensei spends nearly a weekend ignoring Ami, and in that state, it probably drove her near insanity fearing that he might have gotten hurt. It also drives in the abandonment fears that have been building for a while now. To Ami, love is about sacrifice, and in a sort of symbolic gesture she cuts her hair to prove her "love" to Sensei in a desperate attempt to stop him from leaving her.
Sensei does the most active thing he's done the entire game and stops Ami from potentially harming herself, and in the process Ami hurts Sensei. And this is so damaging to Ami because of the two points brought up earlier. She mentions earlier in the game that she is literally incapable of hurting Sensei, which is why she believes that he can only be with her.
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But in this instance, that's proven wrong. Ami can hurt Sensei, making her no different from any of the other girls. And this breaks her, destroying her purpose and that dream she had.
That's kinda at the state where we're at with Ami, but I'm very excited about how she'll be able to overcome these issues.
Ami’s story has room for some serious development in the very near future.