The thought of it isn't as hot in real life it's just a fantasy I have.
Yes that's one of the things I really like with AVN etc. They allow us all to enjoy fantasies of all kinds. Some which I am sure none of us would like to (or even feel compelled to) live out in real life - and maybe some we wish to experience after all.
But that's the great thing about the human mind, we can create and inhabit worlds which do not exist and we can empathize with a fictional character and thus experience passion, sorrow and indeed lust even if it is not in real life, or ever meant to be "real".
So let us all allow ourself to enjoy our individual fantasies, no kink shaming. Just like Joshy, don't be afraid to sometimes push your own boundaries - I applaud you sir. (besides as long as we live them out in AVN they hurt only pixels after all)
Finally, have fun with it, it's why we enjoy these games after all - isn't it?