It's not exactly maddening, since Lena is having doubts because she knows Holly has feelings for Ian, and that getting her into the mix could just make it all too confusing for her and complicated for them all. She's hesitating out of the concern for Holly's wellbeing. With Louise, especially if Lena is her mistress, the situation is quite different.Yes, in Ch11 I think, Holly can kiss Lena. Which leads to an absolutely maddening internal monologue on Lena's part where she wonders if all three of them could possibly get together. Like, girl, you *just* had a threesome with the dude like 10 minutes ago!