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Hey guys!
Just wanna let y'all know, I'm still alive and kickin!
This is two weeks after the release of chapter two, and what I've been feeling this couple weeks is one of the weirdest feeling I've ever had.
Seeing the positive reviews and people said that they enjoy my game, theorizing, discussing, or even talked about it, makes me smiled ear to ear like a little girl in a candy shop! It really makes me feel like all the burden, all the effort, all that sweat and tears, are lifted from my shoulders. It makes me feel like I'm really doing something.

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On the other hand, while I know I shouldn't have, but I've been dwelling on negative reviews a little too much. While it's in the minority, I just can't help to read it all and it does stuck inside my head. If I'm being honest, there's not a single day that I'm not doubting myself. My whole year of being a "Dev", or at least I'm trying to be, it was always constant insecurity and inferiority feelings. Comparing myself to others, questioning my skills, my writings, my game, my hardware, like "Do I have what it takes?" "Am I good enough?", "Did people actually like my game? Did they enjoy it at all?" , "Is my game really a flop? Or a slop?" Or whatever the heck it is, It's always there.
All I can say about it is that this release of chapter two is a very valuable lesson for me. The good and the bad. "
Aight, that's enough, Howie. Don't be a b*tch."
All the complains about how short the game is, and how long the development time, it's just making me more impatient. So I've surfed all different kinds of online marketplaces. Other devs advised me to get 4060 ti, cause it's a decently fast card for rendering, low power usage, also have 16GB of VRAM, which is a perfect card for me. But for the love of god... The 16GB ones are REALLY hard to find. They list it on the marketplace, but when I ask most of the sellers, 90% of the answer is "Sorry, we're out of stock for this card", Then why the flip did y'all still put it up on the main page?! The whole thing is flooded with 4060 ti, 5060, 5060 ti that have only 8GB of Vram. Bruh, these cards are all above 480$ up till 520$ !!! What is happening?!
Thankfully I found like couple of sellers that have 16GB cards available, and I've put them on my wishlist for now. Tell you what, I really wanna buy it with paylater credit, get the card now and then I can work for the game more comfortably and more efficient. but after I talk with MisterMaya the other day, Patreon is not a safe income. And he is absolutely, 1000% right. Even though I see a decent numbers now, it can change anytime. People come and goes, sub and cancel, it's all a normal thing for Patreon. So I refrain myself to buy it with credit, I mean, yeah, sure... I can pay the bills for the first month. But what if the numbers go down on the second months? I still love my kidneys and I don't want to sell my booty either. So I'll be patient and maybe wait for next month before I made that kind of decision.
This past few weeks I've spent a lot of my time to fix some errors and render bugs on chapter two. Story boarding and writing goes well. Also fixing some of things on the characters, especially Amanda. I've fix some things with her, so she'll not suffer some clippings anymore. Here's her body with the changes I've made recently:
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SIKE!! You thought I was gonna show y'all her naked body, don't you? Hah! Got yo ass!
Well, mkay... Just a little bit... Not nude, I'm saving the nude version for later.
Aight, I guess that's all I can say for now. It's a long yaps already. Thank you so much for sticking with me, supporting me, and put your trust in me. I'll try my best to keep improving
Hope you guys have a great week! Much love y'all! <3
-Howie.