Your whining is not gonna change anything , and here is public forum not your personal blog or something
stop crying , go get a job so you won't fail both important part in your life , at least you earn some money.
We already saw tons of crying message like this over the past 4 years ,people still don't learn.
If you got some constructive advice which could accelerate game making , contact the develop team directly, they will like it very much ; and your emotional crap is nonsense to all of us , so you could just save it , maybe post it on your personal blog will be more appropriate , at least not on the public space.