Bro heres the thing, I think you might be confusing some things here, and since you brought it up though I really don't like pointing this out you've been here since 2018, where I'm relatively new here, and heres my thing. This 'Kink' you have leads to depression and anxiety and eventually to self destruction in most cases.
And I know this is a REALLY weird place to get advice from.
But its a dead end that like I said isn't healthy even for a 'kink' even regular kinks don't cause people to decide to end it eventually, so when I say 'Go to the gym' or 'Talk to a girl' I mean it for your own mental health dude, even if you don't succeed with a girl its better to have the interaction than to just straight up psychological issues that'll cause years of therapy for you and potentially ruin your life.
Even though I'm not exactly into this sort of thing, and I came here unintentionally(Believe me or not) and saw the poll, I also have my share of issues with porn addiction but I never let it get to the point where I'd ever be into something like this.
But just so you know I'm not completely talking out my ass saying this, You WILL feel so much better mentally if you at least decide to get off this specific genre and focused on vanilla shit that at least makes you feel good mentally without the emotional baggage and strife.
I ain't making fun of you dude, nobody on this site is mentally entirely 'Ok' and almost EVERYBODY has some perverted issues here, but this specific genre will fuck you up for life, I promise you that.
And that is the most blunt I can be about it.
And I say this not to demean you or talk down to like I'm ANY better but by 2026, I'm really hoping both yours and my account are deleted and neither of us has this much of an addiction to this type of shit.
