I'm actually feeling a lot better,
I feel way more "in control". Not really stressing too hard and that's pretty new for me.
Feels like I let a lot of weight off my shoulders and
like my brain isn't all fogged up anymore.
...
I do feel much
more clear headed than before. I do believe this is the turning point.
I know I've lost a lot of people that fucked with me on my downward spiral and there's no one to blame but myself and I'm cool with that. I hope my actions in the future will bring some of them back.
If you're someone who doesn't fuck with me anymore, then I'd just like to extend an apology for the way my actions have effected you.
And if you're someone who still fucks with me through everything. Then that's really fucking cool and I'm very thankful to have you in my corner. Gonna try and prove the believers right. Gonna give it my all.
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