"I think that for a lot of you it’s nothing new that I have a mental illness, that I’m fighting with for the last two years. I still remember when I was starting to create these kinds of games and to be honest I was never prepared that something like this could happen to me. When someone would tell me that from creating adult games I would need treatment after a few years I wouldn’t believe him then, but now it’s different. I now know how much stress this work causes, especially release dates, hate comments, commenting about lack of content, lack of animations, comparing my games to other games, blackmail that if I’ll not add new scenes with this and this character they will stop pledging, and the most shocking, appearing at the front of my house and asking for an update. Fortunately only via intercom so that person couldn't see me.... (This one was the craziest thing that ever happened to me about a year ago, and forced me to move out… I’m now only renting that place.)
I know that some of you call all of this bullshit or that I lie no matter what I say, so I stopped really caring about that because there’s nothing I can do. Generally, I think I shouldn’t care about any of this since the beginning. That’s why I’m usually quiet. Also since my last post, I started doing what my therapist advised me to do. That I should stop reading everything and focus on my life and work normally without any stress and that actually worked.
Now I’m working on characters I really want and at my own peace without rushing everything just to release it on the planned release date. Unfortunately, it took me some time to heal a little and understand a lot more so I could start working normally again, that’s the main reason for that long wait for the next update.
I also know that I’m not the only one with this problem and after a few years of creating adult games a few more creators that I know started to have some mental illness concerns. I also never really believed fully in what they said at the beginning but I can say that I somehow “grew up” and my opinion on this subject changed.
I also want to point out that it’s not my line of defense to anything that’s happening currently.
I know that it’s all my fault and my problem, That’s why I’m always saying in each post that you can stop supporting me any time you want. All of you who were my patrons at any point during this and last year will receive version 1.0 of Milfy City for free as a thank you for the continued support during this difficult time."