Aug 12, 2024
I don't really know what to say. I've never really quit something in my life. I've always trudged through it, mostly for the worse.
Ending Patreon has been something on my mind on again and off again. But, this time, I'm going through with it. I can't bare the pressure anymore.
What does this mean for chitinous carnival?
It unfortunately means it is over for the game. It's just too much for me to handle. Every scene added to the game required more art than I usually make in a year. Upwards of 20 to 30 new pieces. It's a draining amount of work and has stifled other things I've wanted to do.
Additionally, the code base is a mess of mistakes and blunders. I've grown a lot as a developer. However, fixing the core issue with CC would mean another dreadful rewrite.
Are you done with art and game development?
No. I'm not. I just can't handle this monthly pressure to create. It's constricted me as time gone on. Slowly draining the joy of it as everything either felt like work or felt like wasting time from work. I just don't have the ability to self manage.
I want to work on smaller more focused projects. I want to experiment with new ways to integrate my kink into video games. Without the pressure that Patreon presents. Cards of Change was a great project to work on because I only put it out there when it was done.
I may do entries into Chitinous Carnival as more an anthology of games instead of one monolithic project. I still like the setting and characters. But, I make no promises.
I want a refund.
Message me and I'll give out a refund for August. Patreon doesn't give me the ability to bulk refund. I also believe Patreon has the ability to do refunds but I have no idea how it works.
I've paused payment on this page for the month. I'll be closing it down at the end of the pause (September 12th).
Well, what now...
My mental health is in shambles (again [yippie]). It's what pushed me to consider letting go of this Patreon more seriously. I've done a lot of damage trapping myself into things I could have left at anytime. I need to focus on my physical health as well as the health of my social relationships. It's just time for me to let go. If you in the discord group, it will be kept around. I don't have plans to delete it.
Thank you to everyone that stuck with me for so long.
I'm sorry for this let down,
Quan Zillan
