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Hey, guys! What's up?!
So... long time no see! In the last post, I said my next one would be about the update, and that I didn't want to give spoilers, and such, and such... But it'll be a little more than that. I guess it's both good news and bad news.
I'm not even sure how to begin this post. I don't like to discuss IRL stuff... I've been planning this for a while now, and I've... taken a bold step. As you all know—and if you don't, I think it's safe to say you at least assume—I have a full-time job, and I use my free time to work on the game, a work of passion.
Unfortunately, for the past couple of months, my IRL job has been... burdensome, to say the least. Sometimes life gets in the way, I guess. But what I want to say is that I gave my notice that I'd be moving to a part-time schedule rather than full-time. And because of that... well, let's just say there's been a whole lot more work than usual. It's a bold move. I don't know if this will work out. But hey, can't know if I don't try, right?
The good news about this is that now that I'm freeing up more time, I can work more on the game. And that's thanks to you guys! As I said before, being a game developer is a work of passion—at least in my opinion. If you don't love what you do, especially when it comes to artwork, things just won't work out. And I do love what I do here (I assume you guys do, too!). And I do wish for more time to work on the game. And thanks to you guys, I can. Thanks a lot for your support—even if it was just for one month in here, or leaving a kind review somewhere, talking about it with your friends, being part of the community—doesn't matter—you made it possible! Every bit of support you gave made a huge difference!
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Okay, now. Regarding the update.
First off, I'm a bitch.
I simply CAN'T settle on how Jasmin's scene will unfold. I've lost count of HOW many times I've rewritten it. It's not because I don't like the scenes. It's because by the time I'm finished, I get an idea. "But what if I try this? Does it work? Oh, crap. It turned out a lot better than I thought... Sigh, back to the drawing board."
Take a quick look at this:
This might just be my perfectionist ass screwing me up. But I haven't just rewritten the script—I've redone the entire renders as well. Because, to me, these are three entirely different scenes and setups. The context is different. The soundtrack playing is different. The mood. Even character development and growth changes A LOT with these scenario variations. You'll understand exactly what I mean when you play this scene.
I think the main reason I want this scene to be "perfect" is because of how long it's taken to FINALLY have—not only real progress in their stories—but in their relationship as well. Jasmin is basically the first one we're all gonna... build a relationship with. And I simply want it to be special.
Maybe I'm overthinking this. But then again... it's a work of passion. We tend to be passionate about what we create. And we want it to be great. And that's... as painful as it is pleasurable, sometimes. Both for me and for you guys, I guess. For me, having to torture myself and redo the scene countless times until I'm finally satisfied, and for you, having to wait so long. But at the same time, it's pleasurable for me when I hear your feedback, and for you when you don't get a rushed, half-baked scene.
And yes, the first image was my first attempt at the scene. The middle one was my second. And the last one is my third attempt. Should I have stayed with the first script? No. Because it was bad? Hell no. It was good. But the current one is SO much better. If I were to describe... I'd say the first one was good, the second one was better, but the third feels... alive. I hope you know what I mean. That's the feeling I want for the scenes. And while I can't always achieve this, I do try a lot.
Again, sorry for the delay, guys. I know it's a pain, and you have every right to be pissed at how long it's been taking. IRL stuff gets in the way sometimes, but that doesn't invalidate the frustration a lot of you feel. It's a work of passion for me, and you guys are also passionate about it. You like it, and you want more (I assume... otherwise, why would you be reading this?), and it's frustrating to have to wait longer and longer for it to be complete. Especially since it was supposed to be released weeks, if not months, ago. For that, I'm truly sorry.
I'll have more time to discuss things with you guys this week. Freeing up time from my work gradually throughout the month. Let's get this update done!
Cheers!
