Too gae for me... The MC is unlikable to a fault, with his constant mental breakdowns. I'm afraid that the dev inserted his own fears and anxiety attacks, with his bitching and constant self doubts... I don't want to be rude, cos I suffered depresjon and lack of selfesteem but this guy seems hopeless. I want to know if things start to look up in later chapters as I'm constantly irritated by his inner monologues. I want to learn more about lore and fauna of Avalan, its various cultures and customs, not to read someone's diar(rhea)ies about identity crisis. So, can someone tell me should I continue reading it past the 6th chapter or should I abandon ship prematurely

It seems that the dev is native English speaker or someone who has a good grasp on English language as my reading experience is smooth, but I don't want to keep drowing in the void of MC's mind. Thnx!