It's a fair question. No, the 200 or 300 dollars per month are not essential for living. Basically it’s the difference between hamburger helper or cup-o-noodles because the whiskey is non-negotiable.
Truly the problem is that I spent my savings pausing patreon/subscribestar a few times so I don't have anything to fall back on. And support hasn’t taken a deep dive into the red but I’m still on edge. I woke up feeling wretched last week when I had a dream patreon banned my account. It’s hard to step into a fantasy world when the real one seems so brittle.
On top of that, updates are coming out farther apart and the content seems much less because of all the different routes and variations. Yet every month there seems much more for me to do than the previous one just to get to the same point (around 20 minutes of content minimum). I definitely understand why people are taking their hard-earned money elsewhere and I don’t blame them at all. Progress is really slow right now.
There’s no one to blame for any of this but myself, of course. Fans and supporters of development have been nothing but amazingly understanding and supportive. And as I’ve said, I’m not giving up or even taking a step back. I only need some balance and a small modicum of security to ease myself back to a place where I can write and render in peace from my own nagging anxiety.
