This will be a long one, fair warning:
Hey guys, my name is Micah and I'm a happily engaged guy in my mid 20's. I have a full time career making about $102,000/year before taxes/benefits taken out, and in general I'm happy with my personal life.
BUT.
The last couple of years after college, I've had a really intense drive to create that's been constantly bothering me. It's bothered me to the point of stressing me out, because I have a need to make something...but just...haven't? With that constant nagging in the back of my mind to commit to making something, I like the idea of scaling a business on my own. Taking matters into my own hands financially, and doing what I WANT to do.
So why am I here? Well, to be frank I like sex. I like sexual things, and I don't believe adult games/stories are some untouchable taboo thing. That being said, after playing countless games over the last 4 years from here..I've noticed a few things.
1) There is a severe lack of quality in a lot of the games here. Not to bash devs, they have a skill I don't have. I'm more saying, it feels like some of the devs are making games with 1 hand and their dick in the other. That's not necessarily a bad thing, I'm just saying there is a big gap in quality stories, writing, and art here that could legitimately improve the sexual aspects as well.
2) Like 90% of the games I've playing have been abandoned before there 3rd update. It seems people will pick up development and then drop it for seemingly no reason.
3) The focus being on just the most intense sexual themes possible to drive engagement has done the opposite in my opinion. Smut is more than just the worst possible things you can think of. Erotica is an art form, even if a lot of people hate it. It's possible to make a story first, sex second game here, and it be successful in my opinion.
All of this said, the reason I'm here is this: I want to make a game. I want to make multiple games. I want to bring a level of quality that only a few games have had, and bring my skill of story telling to the erotica side of the internet. It could be mutually beneficial. People are satisfied, and I could turn it into a business like many have before me. There's just a couple of big hurdles I'm trying to get over but am struggling with. I simply lack motivation to learn the necessary skills to pursue this.
I know learning how to code via Ren'py or Unity is absolutely needed, but I've struggled to learn them. I know learning Blender or the Daz3d editor is a must, but I've struggled to learn them. I know what I have to do, but haven't found the resources help it "click" with me. That's all I need. I have the ideas, I have the stories, I have the ability to write compelling narratives, I simply can't get over the bump of "technical ability".
I'm actively seeking answers from players and devs. How can I get passed this, and pursue this career? Advice, criticism, anything will be helpful.
If you stuck around to read, thanks! If you didn't I understand. I look forward to reading potential responses.
