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People like Sel anticipate being hated. That's why by default they wear masks - just look at his initial patreon posts, where he is gushing with appreciation and gratitude for every single player, or the polite affectations he puts on when wanting something. These are the attitudes of someone who knows from life experience they have something to hide - themselves. The darkness for such individuals is filled with screaming and buzzing static noise. A lifetime of punishment just for existing. Behind every external individual is a demon ready to swipe. And so a forum of people shitting on you is just a matter of course - the demons had always been lurking in the darkness. That is why there is the inclination to engage primarily with demons and brush off or entirely ignore the angels. An angel is just a demon in disguise waiting to reveal their true colors. Nobody can be trusted. But demons can be slayed. And so I imagine f95 is a comfortable place for him, a home away from home, where he can relish in the wrath he always knew existed.I bet it's a bit strange being Selly, imagine having a bunch die hard fans of your work who also openly dislike you as a person. What does that do to your ego?
What would be much more interesting is a forum of people praising Selebus no matter what. There are some accusations of the discord being a cult worshipping Selebus, but they live in fear there and he knows it. He can't really trust or believe them, I think. Just look at how he mocked them on F95 as two-faced cheaters hiding their true inclinations from him. So the discord, too, is a place of demons; dedicated fans waiting to turn on him and shit on him the moment the loli content gets too extreme or what have you.
How would Selebus respond in heaven, though? How would he respond to the unconditional, overflowing affection of thousands upon thousands of people? THAT would be more interesting. And perhaps it's what we're seeing in Lessons in Love.