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Psychoanalysis of Makoto from someone who's taken exactly one psychology course in college:
Makoto is insecure because of who her mother is, and her parent's relationship being open (and the fact that she only really saw Maki taking advantage of that fact) led Makoto to feel that the life she and her father provided for her mother wasn't good enough. This prompts a lot of maternal resentment, which dovetailed into daddy issues, though not what we normally think of when we talk about daddy issues. In this case, she wants to become someone who can make her father proud because she feels her mother does the opposite (even though we're given no indication that her father ever said anything like this to her).
This has driven her to constantly push herself, which leads to her becoming The Gifted Burnout. She hasn't burned out yet, not fully, The Gifted Burnout usually doesn't truly burn out until late in college, but the cracks are starting to show. And like most Gifted Burnouts, when the cracks start to show, thoughts of self-harm follow.
Prior to Bluejay, this is played off as nihilistic humor, we don't see until Bluejay that those intrusive thoughts were very real. In Bluejay, her flame flickers. Just for a moment. Not a true burn out, but for just the briefest of moments, the darkness fills her, and succumbs to that intrusive thought that had been simmering below the surface for so long.
The irony is that unlike most Gifted Burnouts, the pressure she faces is not external. It's not her mother pressuring her to get those grades, and the way she talks it's safe to assume her father would have been proud of her no matter what grades she brought home. Her pressure is entirely self-inflicted, born by her desperation to not become her mother.
Enter Sensei, who does what he does best -- wave his cock around and complicate the fuck out of things.
Where Sensei normally takes his time with the girls, with Makoto he puts his hands on her day one. The very first time they're in a room alone, he's encouraging her to take off her clothes. Every time she attempts to establish a boundary, he tramples on it.
This triggers a conflict in Makoto, because so much of her personality at the start of the game is a rejection of her mother, and her mother is absurdly horny, so Makoto is trying SO HARD to NOT be horny. But she's a teenager. She's horny! She's denying it out of spite for her mother, but it's there. And Sensei's aggressive approach towards her causes all of that to crash headfirst into all that pressure she's placed on herself. She invested so much energy on trying to NOT be someone, she never really figures out who she actually is -- and once Sensei shows up, he's making that decision for her.
Sensei is horrible to Makoto. He adds more pressure, putting her in a position where she has to teach the class if there's going to be any learning done. She's already cracking, and he's doubled her emotional workload. He doesn't truly begin respecting or appreciating her until late in Chapter 2. For most of Chapter 1, he's intent on being exactly opposite of what she needs. When she needs a teacher, he's a predator, when she needs someone to fuck her, he refuses. He waits until she's drunk at a party to take her virginity -- a fact that triggers all that contempt she has for her mother and makes her feel like she is her mother's child after all -- the very thing she did not want to be.
She recognizes this. Bluejay is the moment all this cicks in her brain. It's this epiphany that causes her light to flicker for that brief moment, that turns dark humor into dark fact. And she knows that if she hesitates, she'll chicken out. So she tells him to close his eyes so she can act while the conviction is still there.....
.....and the world itself conspires to ensure her failure.
Chapter 2 adds even more pressure in the form of Nodoka. Nodoka is who Makoto could easily have been if she'd accepted her mother. She's academically gifted and a massive pervert -- and when they compete, Nodoka absolutely obliterates her.
Makoto has yet to come to terms with the fact that the woman she is becoming and the woman she wants to be do not align. Maybe, in the long term, her father's death might help her, by removing the motivation to become the person she was never actually going to be. Maybe it'll make her push that rock uphill with twice the ferocity and four times the futility.
Makoto is insecure because of who her mother is, and her parent's relationship being open (and the fact that she only really saw Maki taking advantage of that fact) led Makoto to feel that the life she and her father provided for her mother wasn't good enough. This prompts a lot of maternal resentment, which dovetailed into daddy issues, though not what we normally think of when we talk about daddy issues. In this case, she wants to become someone who can make her father proud because she feels her mother does the opposite (even though we're given no indication that her father ever said anything like this to her).
This has driven her to constantly push herself, which leads to her becoming The Gifted Burnout. She hasn't burned out yet, not fully, The Gifted Burnout usually doesn't truly burn out until late in college, but the cracks are starting to show. And like most Gifted Burnouts, when the cracks start to show, thoughts of self-harm follow.
Prior to Bluejay, this is played off as nihilistic humor, we don't see until Bluejay that those intrusive thoughts were very real. In Bluejay, her flame flickers. Just for a moment. Not a true burn out, but for just the briefest of moments, the darkness fills her, and succumbs to that intrusive thought that had been simmering below the surface for so long.
The irony is that unlike most Gifted Burnouts, the pressure she faces is not external. It's not her mother pressuring her to get those grades, and the way she talks it's safe to assume her father would have been proud of her no matter what grades she brought home. Her pressure is entirely self-inflicted, born by her desperation to not become her mother.
Enter Sensei, who does what he does best -- wave his cock around and complicate the fuck out of things.
Where Sensei normally takes his time with the girls, with Makoto he puts his hands on her day one. The very first time they're in a room alone, he's encouraging her to take off her clothes. Every time she attempts to establish a boundary, he tramples on it.
This triggers a conflict in Makoto, because so much of her personality at the start of the game is a rejection of her mother, and her mother is absurdly horny, so Makoto is trying SO HARD to NOT be horny. But she's a teenager. She's horny! She's denying it out of spite for her mother, but it's there. And Sensei's aggressive approach towards her causes all of that to crash headfirst into all that pressure she's placed on herself. She invested so much energy on trying to NOT be someone, she never really figures out who she actually is -- and once Sensei shows up, he's making that decision for her.
Sensei is horrible to Makoto. He adds more pressure, putting her in a position where she has to teach the class if there's going to be any learning done. She's already cracking, and he's doubled her emotional workload. He doesn't truly begin respecting or appreciating her until late in Chapter 2. For most of Chapter 1, he's intent on being exactly opposite of what she needs. When she needs a teacher, he's a predator, when she needs someone to fuck her, he refuses. He waits until she's drunk at a party to take her virginity -- a fact that triggers all that contempt she has for her mother and makes her feel like she is her mother's child after all -- the very thing she did not want to be.
She recognizes this. Bluejay is the moment all this cicks in her brain. It's this epiphany that causes her light to flicker for that brief moment, that turns dark humor into dark fact. And she knows that if she hesitates, she'll chicken out. So she tells him to close his eyes so she can act while the conviction is still there.....
.....and the world itself conspires to ensure her failure.
Chapter 2 adds even more pressure in the form of Nodoka. Nodoka is who Makoto could easily have been if she'd accepted her mother. She's academically gifted and a massive pervert -- and when they compete, Nodoka absolutely obliterates her.
Makoto has yet to come to terms with the fact that the woman she is becoming and the woman she wants to be do not align. Maybe, in the long term, her father's death might help her, by removing the motivation to become the person she was never actually going to be. Maybe it'll make her push that rock uphill with twice the ferocity and four times the futility.
