hi friends
a psychological incident related to the NTR genre has happened to me, which I want to share with you, so that i hope with your comments I can achieve my desire.
Three months ago, I was in love with NTR to such an extent that I did not go to the vanilla side at all. I used to enjoy a lot even from the smallest dialogue of NTR.
One day I entered the manga and manhwa industry for the first time and I read NTR manga and manhwa for two months, but some of the NTRs in them were very cruel. I was a little traumatized, but I continued! But two months later, I completely removed manga and manhwa from my life and returned to Adult Game, which is much better than both of them
but a strange thing happened :
Now I enjoy romance a lot in Adult Game! It wasn't like that before, it's great that I enjoy romance a lot, but the problem is that now I can't enjoy a lot of NTR!!! The games that used to give me great pleasure, now I'm afraid of them! And this has made me angry, I want to be like before, I don't want to lose that strong pleasure of the past
I didn't sympathize with MC much before,But after the experience of several manga and manhwa that contained Cruel NTR ( It had nothing to do with sexual pleasure, it focused on traumatizing the experiencer ! ) it made me much more interested in MCs! I mean, I self-insert a lot more than before, that's the reason why I enjoy romance a lot now, but this strong self-inserting made me feel more upset instead of enjoying a lot of NTR games! I know that the pleasure of NTR is based on the feelings of jealousy and anxiety and tension and similar, but these feelings used to be very sweet ! That is, the output was very enjoyable, but now it is heartbroken !
How do you think I can go back to the previous state?
With what angle of view or way of thinking or method of playing NTR games should I play so that I don't experience that heart broken feeling?
I am looking forward to your answers, thanks