Same here. I remember how I breaked my first play through up after that scene where Mary did her first shot. I thought it wasn't for me. But my curiosity made me play this AVN again some weeks later. Now I played the whole damn thing and was flashed. My first playthrough with every game is without walkthrough or mods. So I played it with a walkthrough again and now I could see much more of the beauty of this game. Not because of the walkthrough. No, because of the effect you described. You see things you can't see at the first time. Well, after that I did a relapse playthrough. To be honest I don't like this playthrough and I only play this after a new update. But it's good the relapse path is in there. It adds so much depth. I was never an addict and only knew some sober alcoholics. To experience drug addictness in this way of playing as an AVN did a lot with and to me.
Now, I've played this AVN more than 10 times since my first try. It's a hell of a good game and the best demonstration that a good story will ever beat good graphics. I'm sure
Zoey Raven isn't pissed off if I say the graphics aren't S tier. They got better and better with every chapter. That's one point I meant as I wrote you can watch the dev grow on his project and I can't wait to see his work tomorrow in Chapter 15. But it is what it is, the story beats clearly most of the AVN here on this site. It's a pity that the difficult subject means that not many more people play the game. It deserves a lot more attention from the community here. But unfortunately there is nothing you can do about it. I'm happy for and about everyone who discovers this game.
Even if I come across as a simp. I'll not stop "promoting" this game. Everyone should get to know and love Lydia. The rest of the gang too, of course. Frankenstein, Barb, Audrey, Brenda, Molly,... I love them all.
Yeah, I've already done that too.