You’re not supposed to think she’s enjoying herself because she’s not. The only part of her that would ever like it, her alter self, wasn’t even present in that scene. What you’re seeing is fear and trauma. I want it to feel heavy and depressing, because that’s exactly what it is for her. This is a girl who gave up everything just for him, because she’s so desperate to feel any kind of love even if it’s hollow, even if it’s fake. That’s why there are two sides of her one who craves the pain and calls it love, and the other who simply wants to be loved. And the tragic part is, she found a man who doesn’t care for her in that way. She’s trapped in a broken place, clinging to him because, despite everything, he once saved her life. For her, that’s enough to call it love… even though it will never truly be returned.