Well... This is going to be a bit long.
First of all, I like the NTR category, not because I can relate to the characters, but because the content is unusual. And by unusual I mean more taboo, more against the norms of society. I started writing my first book at the age of 7. I completed my first novel before I finished primary school. While I was in high school, I completed a series of 3 novels, each around 600 pages. I wrote over 1000 poems. I performed dozens of them. I wrote and performed around 300 songs. Besides these, of course you can imagine the number of novels and books I read. Why am I telling you all this? Because when you consume and produce so many things, even the most complex things start to seem very ordinary to you even from the first page and you get bored quickly. That's why unusual things start to interest you more.
I know NTR is not very unusual. It has a very big place, especially in Asian culture. I think it has gained a social place because of the heavy influence of Manga culture. Personally, I've read hundreds of manga in this genre, and played many more games (thanks to F95).
As someone who has been seriously cheated on several times in my life, I find cheating disgusting. Personally, I would never cheat on a person, I would never spend a minute with a cheating person. But games, movies, books are a different world and I'm looking for something different there. I'm sorry, themes like a man fucking an entire city single-handedly with his extraordinary dick and all other men going extinct seem to me more illogical than unusual. You don't have to think the same as me. If everyone was interested in the same thing, there wouldn't be so many categories and everyone would spend their time in the same category.
As I mentioned before, I've played a lot of NTR games and frankly most of them are of very poor quality. So unfortunately, it's very difficult to come across a quality work in this category. As you know, there are many types of NTR. I'm more interested in the sharing part, not the cheating part, because the idea that a person can share someone they really love, even though it has never been and will never be accepted by me, seems extraordinary to me and it attracts me.
As I said, although I have been cheated on a few times in my life and have experienced the pain of it, no content I have ever consumed has evoked these feelings in me. Because when I consumed these contents, I did not consume them by seeing the main characters as myself or as people I love. I thought of myself as a superior power controlling other people. And frankly, this amused me. (I hope I'm not a psychopath)
Alright...If you have read this far, let's get to why I am writing this message here instead of elaborating myself further.
I've seen this game before. But I don't know why, maybe the cover photo or maybe the game description didn't attract me so I didn't try it until now. I was playing Baldurs Gate 3 last night and I wanted to browse some F95 and I came across this by chance. I thought, "Oh, it's an NTR RPG with an online game theme, let's try it".
I've reached the part where the main character's girlfriend has a cold. But what is this feeling? I'm trying to figure out why this game makes me feel bad. No NTR game has ever made me feel bad.
I thought about it a bit. Not being able to control the course of events? (I've played this style before and it had no effect)
Is it because the main character has a small dick and when his girlfriend sees someone with a big dick, she prefers him just because of his dick? (90% of NTR games are like this and in my opinion, it is the stupidest type of NTR. In real life, women do not care about dick size at all)
Then what? I think it's because the main character's girlfriend cares so much about the main character at the beginning, takes care of him, and while she seems like an extremely good-hearted person, she suddenly starts cheating on him. And even when she cheats on him, she can easily lie to his boyfriend without the slightest sweat. What is it but a devil hiding under the mask of innocence?
If you pay attention to NTR's games, cheaters usually speak slang, are careless, selfish, and are always angry at their lovers for some reason. But the girl here cares about her boyfriend, protects him, and tries not to put him down, even against her mother. But on the other hand, she cheats on him and doesn't show even the slightest sign of guilt while lying to his face.
The thought of someone being physically harmed has a very bad effect on me. I have Hemophobia. Whenever I see blood, I get a very bad feeling inside and my eyes become dark. That's exactly the effect this game gave me.
By writing this here, I may have wasted the time of many of you and you may have said, "What the hell is this?" You are right.
I am extra interested in psychological issues and I wrote this here as a note, hoping to figure out the real reason in the future. Or I thought maybe someone had experienced a similar situation to me and could give me some ideas.
Thanks for those who read this far. Have fun everybody.