Hi all,
I bring bad news. Here’s what I’m struggling with and what I’ve decided to do:
I started this project because I felt there’s too much negativity and shame and too little positivity and celebration in the genre. I still do, and I think it’s a fine motivation to create a game like this. But I’m constantly confronted with the fact that - for me - that’s not enough.
When I work on something, I want it to be good. Need it to be. And so with a project like this, that has no actual deadlines or anyone telling me what to do, I go all out. A lot of time and effort go into it. Time and effort I can only show through this Patreon and the game itself. I reckon there’s probably plenty of people that are in a place where they could share a project like this with friends and family, but I’m not. And I don’t feel the need to be. I’m much more comfortable not sharing that I’m working on this.
And that’s not because I think one should be ashamed or anything like that. The way I’ve written this story reflects the way I feel about it. But that doesn’t mean I’d be comfortable sharing it. And I do want to share what I work on. What motivates me, gets me going. So it creates this environment in which I spend hours and hours on a project I can tell practically nobody about. And that’s quite a lonely way to spend time.
The second thing is the nature of the game. Porn. Don’t get me wrong: I (obviously) love porn. And I’ll have stretches of time in which I watch or play a lot more for a while, and that doesn’t bother me. But after a while, I tend to get to a place where I’m done with it. And - and this might be my own fault for trying to find the perfect scenes and whatnot - I keep coming back to that place while creating this game. It’s.. too much.
A third thing - that’s a positive for me but not for you guys - is that this project has made me realize that I love writing and that I’m perfectly capable of creating a game all by myself. It’s had me dreaming about creating a game - a sfw one - that I can share with my friends and family. A similar approach to this one but with a little more wackiness and, well, no porn.
So here’s what I’ve decided to do: I’ve paused the Patreon billing. Which means you’ll all stay members for free for at least the coming month and I’ll keep pausing until I’ve finished and released the final event of the first chapter. I’m not saying I’ll never continue after that, but right now I can’t say for sure that I will either.
I don’t know yet when the final chapter will be released. I'll take a little break from it for a week or two, but I will release it and I’ll put in the same effort that I’ve put into the game so far.
I apologize. I want to thank you all for your support and being my patrons. I realize I promised a game at least 5 times the size of the current state. Not to do one chapter and then call it quits. If I knew I wasn’t in it for the long haul, I wouldn’t have suggested I was. The plans, the ideas, the story - they’re all real. But I can’t do what I can’t do, and it’s a conclusion I’ve not come to lightly.
Sorry, thanks and I’ll keep you all updated.
xxx Hop