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"Where the fuck have you been Brain? Is everything okay?"
Yeah my bad, sorry for the hiatus. I didn't expect to be silent for this long.
I've been doing a lot recently... I was really in a bad way during my last post and I won't lie, the days after it were worse. (But I'm doing better for the most part now )
First I want to thank you all for the kind comments and words of supports you've sent my way. They've helped me tremendously. <3
Shortly after my last post I realized that my mental was still getting worse and I was having panic attacks and I couldn't sleep at all.
And obviously that's not good, so I decided to do my best to stay silent on most platforms and take some time to truly try to resolve some of the issues I've been facing.
Basically anything that was causing me stress I tried to find a solution for. And it's been working. More than anything I just needed to take a step back and remind myself of why I love doing what I do and I need to stop giving so much energy to the things that I don't love about it.
I've also started on some of the home fixes I needed to do. This place is really old and it's really starting to fall apart and with yet another water leak I couldn't put it off any longer.
I've continued working as I promised I would but I have admittedly taken it easy these past few days. There's been a lot of planning and theory crafting.
Day 7 final will still be out this month, but it'll be a bit from now.
The more I thought about it the less I was happy with the ending of day 7. At least from a render standpoint so I've been redoing some of them as well as the ones I had to redo from earlier in day 7.
I actually think my issues with the ending were a huge part of the stress. I didn't realize it at the time but damn, I'm happy I'm able to do it right.
And as for me I'm doing much better than I was in my last post. I still have some battles but being able to take the time to address them without a huge cloud of guilt hanging over me is helping in so many ways. And I wouldn't be able to do that if it wasn't for all of you guys.
I am sorry for the delayed finale but I hope it'll be worth it. And soon after day 7's final we'll also have the week 1 final edition that will have the redone renders and a few story bits from days 1-2 and some of 3.
And as for patreon posts they'll be starting up again.
There will be a client poll tomorrow and some teasers early next week. And the second half of "A day in the life of Emiko" will be out on this upcoming Wednesday.
I've been taking some time for myself at night as well. I've re-watched avatar the last airbender (my favorite cartoon), replayed psychonauts (My favorite game), got a new pb in SM64, and what's helped the most is actually a game called Satisfactory. It's an automation game and that's kind of my shit and it's been awesome to sink some hours into because it's about the only thing that I can completely lose myself in. And that's been huge in helping.
So yeah, I'm back and I'm doing better. I was hoping to have day 7 final out by now but I ended up having to slow some things down. I should have a date or at least a time frame to announce in the teaser post.
Thank you guys again, this was mainly just a post to let you guys know what's up. We should be back on schedule soon. Love you <3