- May 12, 2019
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I'm not ashamed of 'my' kinks/fetishes, but I also don't strongly feel any kinks/fetishes. My feelings/ level of interest seem to be clipped. For some time I thought it was being self-inhibited or in denial, perhaps because of moral factors or something, and maybe that is still in play, but I've been in contexts to explore and haven't come out in a particular way. All that being said, I've spent more than a month in psychiatric hospitals with major depression/psychomotor retardation, and come from a line of not-so-healthy individuals, so I'm not exactly a particularly regular case. Have felt enough delusional guilt and shame. I guess unlike some of the other posts, I don't easily love myself.
The degeneracy of wanting a cozy fuck on a lazy rainy day, lounging and playing. Will take it to my grave.
With others, I respect people's privacy and wouldn't want to impose upon them to reveal something about themselves, but would want to make someone feel comfortable with speaking freely and openly. I've had partners talk about particular exhibitionistic and voyeuristic fantasies, watched porn with partners (though one was a ridiculous JAV more to laugh at), and done some things. The openness and exploration was great, and I was glad to share, even if I can't say I felt the same things. But that's part of the human experience.
Having had some experiences with people who could not differentiate between fantasy and reality (at times) has made me a little more wary in some contexts. Let alone actually deciding what reality actually is. I'm somewhat relatavistic, but there may be special and general relativity, so to speak.
I'm somewhat interested in possible hypotheses or connections behind fetishes - less as a 'diagnosis' or explanation, but more as a topic of curiosity. E.g. motor vs. somatosensory homunculus positioning of the feet near the genitals as a possible connection for foot fetishism. Trauma or fear-related twisting into particular fetish scenarios. How the mind warps something of disgust into something desired, perhaps as processing disgust in various regions. Though I disdain deigning something as more abnormal when it is difficult to study what people actually do and think, accurately. Armchair psychiatry that contain sexual thoughts/aspects too simply, or make them 'explain everything' are quite annoying. Too often used as a tool to dismiss someone because of a different line of thinking. The creativity behind sexuality is quite fascinating.
But over-intellectualizing and disconnecting sexuality is such a waste.
Talking about your femdom breath-play while at a relative's child's birthday party maybe wouldn't be the best though...
The degeneracy of wanting a cozy fuck on a lazy rainy day, lounging and playing. Will take it to my grave.
With others, I respect people's privacy and wouldn't want to impose upon them to reveal something about themselves, but would want to make someone feel comfortable with speaking freely and openly. I've had partners talk about particular exhibitionistic and voyeuristic fantasies, watched porn with partners (though one was a ridiculous JAV more to laugh at), and done some things. The openness and exploration was great, and I was glad to share, even if I can't say I felt the same things. But that's part of the human experience.
Having had some experiences with people who could not differentiate between fantasy and reality (at times) has made me a little more wary in some contexts. Let alone actually deciding what reality actually is. I'm somewhat relatavistic, but there may be special and general relativity, so to speak.
I'm somewhat interested in possible hypotheses or connections behind fetishes - less as a 'diagnosis' or explanation, but more as a topic of curiosity. E.g. motor vs. somatosensory homunculus positioning of the feet near the genitals as a possible connection for foot fetishism. Trauma or fear-related twisting into particular fetish scenarios. How the mind warps something of disgust into something desired, perhaps as processing disgust in various regions. Though I disdain deigning something as more abnormal when it is difficult to study what people actually do and think, accurately. Armchair psychiatry that contain sexual thoughts/aspects too simply, or make them 'explain everything' are quite annoying. Too often used as a tool to dismiss someone because of a different line of thinking. The creativity behind sexuality is quite fascinating.
But over-intellectualizing and disconnecting sexuality is such a waste.
Talking about your femdom breath-play while at a relative's child's birthday party maybe wouldn't be the best though...