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The main thing that has meant we still don't have a 0.06 this month was... me. No other way around it. Aka is waiting for me to add dialog and scenes right now. BUT. And it is a big butt! I've made progress! I am really happy about the changes I'm making to my life, my habits, and what it all means for my NSFW projects you are helping make a reality. I have cut my gaming hours, lift weighs almost every morning, eat less compulsively, stress less (most days), use Notion and my notebooks every day so I'm sure I will remember stuff, and function much better.
Things that used to make me want to hide under a rock (paperwork, setting appointments, going to appointments, forgetting stuff (including some of the aforementioned appointments), dealing with frustration and imposter syndrome, patiently explaining the truth to people who don't want to hear it even when it's staring them in the face...), now are bad moments I am proud to be able to put up with. This whole crap is easier to understand if you are neurodivergent and have spent most of your life undiagnosed, but man. Listen. It's good to know why I couldn't understand why my brain worked like it did for all those years. And so awesome to know that I now can, and will get better and better at.
So, here's hoping you don't decide now's the perfect time to bail, right? XD It would really suck after all the work, but you know what? it wouldn't change the fact that this game's getting done. Mental roadblocks can go fuck themselves.
To both believers and cynics, thanks again. You both are the reason Ben X lives on.
Newman.