Slave collaring a black woman is that extreme for me. In all honesty any over-the-top BDSM is revolting to me. Revolting enough to make me physically ill. The extra significance of placing a slave collar on a woman of that ethnicity was too extreme, unnecessary and extremely unpleasant.
You don't see color, are ok, with slave play. Ok. Good for you. But, excuse me, I wasn't talking about you.
I can't see the kink, only the act. Maybe because I abhor BDSM. But in absolute certainty because I simply HATE racism with every fiber of my being. Was that the intention? I don't know. I am not inside MB's head. I am, however, inside mine, and what I saw, was revolting.
I liked Jasmine, up to that point. Now, any scene with her is an automatic skip. Besides that, I lowered my respect for the MC, I see him now with really unfavorable eyes. I still play this. But I changed my view of this game quite considerably after that unfortunate scene.
Don't bother telling me it is Optional, I am fully aware. I went into it, trusting in MB. I came out of it, never trusting him again. Did he have the right to do it? Sure. It is his game. Apparently there are enough people that don't have MY sensitivities to make it make sense. But, I feel sad for the need to make a scene like that, sad, because I lost something that I'll never get back, to appease the kinks of people that enjoy treating others like trash. I will not even go into the people that enjoy being treated as trash. That, I prefer to not even talk about.
Again, because I am not talking about the kink, the scene only irked me this way because of the skin color of Jasmine. At the time, I was perfectly OK going in blind on every scene. I trusted MB. Nothing particularly bad was gonna happen. Since then, no. I accept, but make a quick save, so I can go back if he goes into something like this again. I no longer feel safe in this game. I expect shit like that at every turn. That's why I refuse to spank Shizuka. I don't trust MB to not go too far anymore, in fact, I expect that the scene ends with her either dead or in the Hospital. Unlikely? Yes. But I lost trust, now everything is seen with the worst possible outcome in mind.
No, I don't expect anyone to agree with me. No, I don't need to stop playing. I can still have an opinion, I think. I was quite clear when it happened, directly with MB. I know he didn't like the criticism, I know I didn't like that particular detail on that scene. Life goes on.
But, no. I no longer say Yes to everything, I no longer have that level of trust and will never have again. That's what this is about.
Peace
