- Jul 11, 2020
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Well most of the latent feelings are going to be there, remember he chose Maya over Niki and it's likely he was with Maya before he actually broke up with Niki.Am I the only one that feels so out of place lately with this whole Maya thing?
As someone that isn't the biggest fan of Maya, it feels weird how Sensei is just so broken now, and how I am absolutely not emotionally impacted at all by her dissapareance, like I don't care that much?
It feels like this "potent" love for her appeared out of nowhere and it doesn't make sense to me. Like you knew he was always interested in her more than the others, but there was never something so deep that he would break mentally the way he did.
It feels weird that I used to be able to understand what Sensei is doing and thinking, and now I feel a total disconnect with the character. I used to understand his views and motives (understand is not the same as agreeing with them), and always wanted to see how else he would fuck up and if he would try to improve. I wanted to see how deep the rabbit hole goes.
He always did what I wanted him to do. Build relations... be a horrible human being... slowly redeem himself... remember his past and understand the truth of his world... "COLLECT"...
Now he is different, I know why he is different, and it doesn't make a damned sense to me.
Not only that but Maya has been the one proper connection for him through all this, and even without his latent feelings from his past (which he partially remembers but are probably still shining through), she's the one he's always gone to to speak about the reset stuff and has been alongside him through this mess.
And as time grew through Chapter 3 and he learnt more about himself, he always returned to Maya, and would drop everything for Maya. Remember he chose just being close with Maya over having sex with Noriko, which is a pretty pivotal moment for this sex-crazed groomer. When he learnt his name? He called Maya.
It's also been shown that Sensei does not deal with loss well at all. After Sekai died he completely broke down (He broke up with Niki and shut almost everyone out, maybe except Maya?). He's still haunted by it, showing he definitely has some of his memories and is just repressing it. Now add that it's Maya into the mix and you've got a perfect recipe for someone breaking.
Because unless I'm recalling incorrectly, Sensei never actually knew what fully happened during Bluejay, he didn't actually know Makoto killed herself but the world reset it.
Hope that explains a bit.