So many interesting points, let me address them but not quite in the correct order:
(...)"First Contact" was hillarious in my eyes and the writing was already good.
Cheers, even though it is obviously flawed, I still love it a lot for all I put in and all it gave back to me.
It is exactly when u fail that you can improve and if "First Contact" was a failure (...) in naughtyroad eyes then he took his time to analyze why and tried to improve for his next project.
In terms of gaining supporters it was a failure because there were just a handful. But amazingly some of that handful are still with me and supporting me, which is amazing in itself and earns them my eternal gratitude. So a success in failure right there.
However, that was never the primary reason why I made First Contact. One of the main goals of First Contact was to fail, in many small ways, so it was a success in that regard.
With anything you do the first time, you are going to make a lot of mistakes, and you keep dragging them with you for the rest of the project. First Contact was to be a training project and a nicely contained sandbox for those mistakes, allowing me to do something complete and whole from front to back, and then walk away from it with a bunch of experience and a clean slate (which is not to say I will never return to it, but that is for time to tell).
(...)But not even half of them did so i ended up making around 1.2k and lost all hope as i wrote 6 months for it to be finished. So i made 206€ in a month and knew this shit will get me nowhere. Now i can live from writing with mostly no problem.
(...)But a VN is similar.
It's nice to hear that you took that setback, and turned it into a success, and you know exactly what you are talking about here. You are so right when you say the setbacks are what lets you learn and improve and ultimately, succeed, if you keep at it, and you did that, and one day - I hope - so will I.
The only thing that worries me though, is that I'd expected to fail a lot more before gaining any success at all. I'm just hoping that sword isn't up there waiting to drop on my head...