I'm sorry to hear that this has been hard on you. Hope one of these days you can find a way to treat yourself kinder, nobody holds you to that standard of perfection nor do you owe it to them. There is no perfection in life
Honestly, the only ever thing I wanted from the new Live With Milf update was just more pictures of Gwen, lol
Anyways, take care of yourself man, don't let this kill you