Fuck, I just finished Act two. And well, it is intimidating to jump into a thread with so many well-thought-out and interesting responses, and I will also admit that I was put off that one of the first responses on the first page seemed to be advocating violence towards Lacey. I hope that the user is just too young to know better, but at the same time acknowledge that some men are just pieces of shit that view women as things to be beaten into obedience.
I really want to share my feelings/vent. I only just finished act two, so this will be just a blah ramble session that may not make much sense. After I have had time to cool down and process everything, I will come back and try to do a deeper dive into my individual feelings about some of the characters, themes, and he journey they are on. Also, I would like to add that I love how hefty these acts are. I thought I had reached act two when Lacey returned from her business trip, but nah. I love it. I can't remember another game I have played on here that had updates with so much story in them. Like, each act is longer than some games on here. The author is immensely talented, and I subscribed to their Patreon before I even finished Act 1. After I process this for a bit, I can't wait to play their other games, because fuck this one broke me.
I felt so many emotions throughout the course of the game so far. Act one had me feeling melancholic yet happy, and hopeful, because despite all the trauma the two MCs were taking steps to grow and heal, and seemed to be on the same journey and thought processes that I have been on for a while. Open communication can be painful, but it is also healthy and necessary. And both the MCs realize that relationships are about seeing and being seen, about growing together and supporting each other. About accepting one another. seeing if you can incorporate all the things that have defined you as an individual, all the pain, and trauma, heartbreak, and triumph into one complete whole. It really seemed like they were making slow and steady steps to grow together. The Damien thing was shitty, no doubt about that. But honestly, I believe Lacey's thought process about it, and even traumatic as it was it led to her striving to be better. Maybe since it happened in act one and so much has happened since, or maybe because of who I am, I have a hard time holding onto any anger towards her over it
The beginning and middle of Act Two hit me like a brick and transformed that melancholic sorrow and joy into an anger so intense that it left me shaking and wanting to punch a wall(Which i hate and am ashamed that such an instinct can even cross my mind, fuck Im too old for bullshit like that and should have left such flashes of emotion in high school.) and needing to clean house to cool down.) I thought Mia and Anna, and possibly others in the friend group, were plotting. I assumed what Mia was doing with the bags of K was part of a longer scheme. That Anna and Mia were going to offer themselves up to Will. Get Will to try and seduce Lacey. and set the MC up with the woman who became his assistant (I feel shitty for blanking on her name right now.) That it was all part of some misguided scheme to make the MC and Lacey confront their absolute worst fears, like some sort of twisted exposure therapy. I felt betrayed and was so fucking angry. ( I know I am skipping around a lot here, please bear with me. My thoughts are a jumble, and my body is still being flooded with so many chemicals and emotions over the story.) That anger peaked with the littlebitch video, which I admit I fell for just like the MC. I had to get up and go to the gym to work out that fury. Thankfully, the Monster directed the MC to Little Miss Cotton Candy, and that mess got sorted out. I really love that the MC and Lacey let the blows, the emotions roll over them like a tide, but not consume them. And when the tide recedes, they talk and communicate openly. I love it so much. I will say it a thousand times, I love open communication, and it is so fucking important and part of maturity. And the author was great about not making that the stopping point for Act Two. And everything that came afterwards made me feel warm and snug, and like that, no matter what trouble comes next,t everyone will be okay.
So now for some misc thoughts and wrap up. There will be things I miss because again, my mind is a frantic jumble right now, and I need to get these words out. Express my thoughts and have them seen.
Some people were saying that the woman whom they deep-faked Lacey onto was Veronica. I kinda doubt that at this point. At the very end, the mysterious villain mentioned that it was someone they had hired recently. Maybe it's Will's girlfriend?
I really love that the MC and Isaac are connecting, helping each other, and that it helped the MC see himself in a new light. I kinda hope they become friends and maybe experiment at some point. I imagine that if Isaac and the MC experiment in front of Lacey, it will turn her pussy into a waterfall. I love that Isaac is an actual character with depth and not a caricature of an aggressive black man. And its fucking nice that he would make his house available like that.
I have a hard time feeling anger at Lacey. Maybe that says more about me and that I'm the type of person who wants to see the best in others. To see their flaws, incorporate them into my mental image of them, and accept and love them. But I truly believe she is genuine with everything she says to MC and Mia. She's fucked up but is truly on a journey of self-improvement. Of accepting and working on her flaws. And fuck speaking from experience, no horrid narcissist would accept that they have narcissistic qualities, that those qualities hurt and manipulate those they love, and that it's something they need to work on. And I think she is worthy of being truly seen and loved, and accepted by the MC. Just as she's doing for him. Which on the MC, and this is something I really empathise with him about and am working on myself. He needs to accept that expressing anger is sometimes okay, but I also love that he's working on finding a middle ground between keeping it all bottled in and avoiding confration (Which the Monster warned him about with Mia.) and exploding in justified anger and then feeling like you need to comfort and reassure the person you exploded at. It's very mature and a journey I am on myself. I really see so much of myself in both the MCs. It hurts to admit this, but I have wasted my twenties and now, at thirty, feel like I'm in the place where most people are at twenty or younger. I was so hurt and depressed, and did nothing with my twenties. Never truly lived, never explored the world, or allowed myself to be open, honest, and form genuine connections. I also used pot as an escapism and have done so much of it for an extended period of time that I probably have given myself irreversible brain damage. Fuck I even tried to kill myself multiple times, and it wasn't the people who loved me, or hope for a better future, that stopped me from doing it. But because I was scared of what came after death. Lol too scared to live, too scared to die. Im doing better now, or at least I hope I am. I'm taking small steps to improve myself and trying not to look at the big picture. But fuck this story cut me to the core and feels very close to home.
Honestly, I like Mia and the rest of the friend group as well. At times, it feels they are a little too invested in the MCs and that they may not have much of a life outside of them(Which is something I have noticed often in romance stories). And well, I was furious at Mia for her whole K plot. I think it came from a place of love (Which even plans born from love can ruin lives). At this point, I have a hard time not forgiving her and believing that she and all the friend group really do love, cherish, and want Lacey and the MC to be happy and flourish.
Fuck Will, fuck that old bitch of a landlord, and whoever else is working with them. I want to strangle them all and, at the same recognize how deeply unhealthy such an impulse is. I appreciate that their stupid fucking plans aren't going as well as they think, that open communication renders such plots powerless. And that they are going to waste time on another deepfake. I find it hard to believe that Will could seduce either Anna, Mia, or Lacey(and fuck him for neglecting his girlfriend, what an immature piece of shit.) But maybe he could get them to trust him enough that he gets a chance to spike their drinks with K and take advantage of them? Is that even something you could do? Would K work in that matter? I'm ignorant about K. Pot was always my drug of choice, and the others in my life who abused harder drugs did other drugs besides K. Anyway fuck them all and I hope their plans come to naught.
Im really glad the author left us where they did. After the emotional rollercoaster I went through, I think a cliff hanger would have left me dwelling on the story nonstop until Act three came out. As it is they left us in a place where I feel happy, comfy, and emotionally secure.
I have no idea who the Monster is. Someone suggested that it may be a group or Christie, and either could be true. I don't get why they are playing cloak and daggers. I don't understand why they are so invested and know so much. Not just about the MC, Lacey, and the friend group. But also about the villains and their plans. It also seems like they are a very busy person, even separate from their role as the monster.... Okay, this is a total nonsense shot in the dark. But what if the Monster is that head of accounting? The MC has already jokingly referred to them as his nemesis for other reasons. What if the little old lady who doesn't understand technology is a ruse, and she's actually some all-knowing wise woman, the eccentric mentor and triskter, like shows up so often in fiction(think Yoda and the like.), who wants to guide the MC to a happy ending? I mean it kinda seems weird that she would be in the story and have a model if she wasn't important.
For the title of Act three, "learning to let go." I really hope that it refers to learning to let go of jealousy, trauma, and pain. or incorporate it into a healthy relationship. And not the MC and Lacey learning to let go of each other. I need them to have a happy ending. Like it's a spiritual need and investment at this point. I need them to grow together like two trees intertwining with each other. Supporting each other without strangling each other. All the while growing together to reach for the sun.
And on the topic of strangling. It fucking breaks my heart that a part of Lacey seems to believe that this relationship will end with MC killing her. That it's something she's accepted and even fantasizes about. fuck it makes me want to cry and hug her.
Finally, outside the story, it is so fucking inspiring that the author wrote this well depressed. That they are so talented and creative. That they are able to put pieces of themself into a story and make it something amazing. With deep characters, an engaging plot, and real lessons and growth, and not jerkoff junk food. I have been exploring the NTR genre for a while, processing why I like it and what it says about me, and maybe the trauma I have gone through. And at first, the emotions, the pit in my stomach that the genre would make me feel, made me fascinated with every story. But recently, those emotions have been processed somewhat I realized how unsatisfied I am with many NTR stories. So many of them have bland two-dimensional characters that exist just to get fucked, with a story that doesn't really say anything, and the same tropes repeated over and over again. But this story and two others I have found recently have captured hold of me and helped me process my emotions, past trauma, the feeling that I am never enough for anyone, and really helped me grow. I'm thankful for the author. Well, at the same time, jealous. I always wanted to be an author, and I haven't written a word for ten years. Fuck I hate myself for giving that up. For feeling its too late to start now. Whenever I look at a blank page,e I am overwhelmed with the feeling that I am an uncreative piece of shit. With no stories worth telling, no journeys worth sharing, o characters worth creating, and that no one would ever care to read anything to have to write. The fact that this amazing story, which has affected me so deeply, is just a side project for the author, well, they are depressed....Well, it both inspires me, fills me with jealousy, makes me ashamed, and makes me want to be better.
Phew... well that turned into a whole long vent. If any of you bother to read all this, I am immensely thankful. I know it's a lot, and hopefully some of it was interesting to read. Hell, just writing it all down helped me with what I am feeling. I should probably go back, read it all again, and edit it. But I just don't have the emotional energy to do so right now so I am going to post it as is. Im going to go work out or clean. But i will be back. I want to do a more thorough reading of everyone else's thoughts on the story. I want to make an effort to be part of the discussion that is happening on this thread. This story is so amazing, and discussing it with everyone is something that I think will make me happy and make me feel like I'm back in a creative writing or English lit class again.
I really want to share my feelings/vent. I only just finished act two, so this will be just a blah ramble session that may not make much sense. After I have had time to cool down and process everything, I will come back and try to do a deeper dive into my individual feelings about some of the characters, themes, and he journey they are on. Also, I would like to add that I love how hefty these acts are. I thought I had reached act two when Lacey returned from her business trip, but nah. I love it. I can't remember another game I have played on here that had updates with so much story in them. Like, each act is longer than some games on here. The author is immensely talented, and I subscribed to their Patreon before I even finished Act 1. After I process this for a bit, I can't wait to play their other games, because fuck this one broke me.
I felt so many emotions throughout the course of the game so far. Act one had me feeling melancholic yet happy, and hopeful, because despite all the trauma the two MCs were taking steps to grow and heal, and seemed to be on the same journey and thought processes that I have been on for a while. Open communication can be painful, but it is also healthy and necessary. And both the MCs realize that relationships are about seeing and being seen, about growing together and supporting each other. About accepting one another. seeing if you can incorporate all the things that have defined you as an individual, all the pain, and trauma, heartbreak, and triumph into one complete whole. It really seemed like they were making slow and steady steps to grow together. The Damien thing was shitty, no doubt about that. But honestly, I believe Lacey's thought process about it, and even traumatic as it was it led to her striving to be better. Maybe since it happened in act one and so much has happened since, or maybe because of who I am, I have a hard time holding onto any anger towards her over it
The beginning and middle of Act Two hit me like a brick and transformed that melancholic sorrow and joy into an anger so intense that it left me shaking and wanting to punch a wall(Which i hate and am ashamed that such an instinct can even cross my mind, fuck Im too old for bullshit like that and should have left such flashes of emotion in high school.) and needing to clean house to cool down.) I thought Mia and Anna, and possibly others in the friend group, were plotting. I assumed what Mia was doing with the bags of K was part of a longer scheme. That Anna and Mia were going to offer themselves up to Will. Get Will to try and seduce Lacey. and set the MC up with the woman who became his assistant (I feel shitty for blanking on her name right now.) That it was all part of some misguided scheme to make the MC and Lacey confront their absolute worst fears, like some sort of twisted exposure therapy. I felt betrayed and was so fucking angry. ( I know I am skipping around a lot here, please bear with me. My thoughts are a jumble, and my body is still being flooded with so many chemicals and emotions over the story.) That anger peaked with the littlebitch video, which I admit I fell for just like the MC. I had to get up and go to the gym to work out that fury. Thankfully, the Monster directed the MC to Little Miss Cotton Candy, and that mess got sorted out. I really love that the MC and Lacey let the blows, the emotions roll over them like a tide, but not consume them. And when the tide recedes, they talk and communicate openly. I love it so much. I will say it a thousand times, I love open communication, and it is so fucking important and part of maturity. And the author was great about not making that the stopping point for Act Two. And everything that came afterwards made me feel warm and snug, and like that, no matter what trouble comes next,t everyone will be okay.
So now for some misc thoughts and wrap up. There will be things I miss because again, my mind is a frantic jumble right now, and I need to get these words out. Express my thoughts and have them seen.
Some people were saying that the woman whom they deep-faked Lacey onto was Veronica. I kinda doubt that at this point. At the very end, the mysterious villain mentioned that it was someone they had hired recently. Maybe it's Will's girlfriend?
I really love that the MC and Isaac are connecting, helping each other, and that it helped the MC see himself in a new light. I kinda hope they become friends and maybe experiment at some point. I imagine that if Isaac and the MC experiment in front of Lacey, it will turn her pussy into a waterfall. I love that Isaac is an actual character with depth and not a caricature of an aggressive black man. And its fucking nice that he would make his house available like that.
I have a hard time feeling anger at Lacey. Maybe that says more about me and that I'm the type of person who wants to see the best in others. To see their flaws, incorporate them into my mental image of them, and accept and love them. But I truly believe she is genuine with everything she says to MC and Mia. She's fucked up but is truly on a journey of self-improvement. Of accepting and working on her flaws. And fuck speaking from experience, no horrid narcissist would accept that they have narcissistic qualities, that those qualities hurt and manipulate those they love, and that it's something they need to work on. And I think she is worthy of being truly seen and loved, and accepted by the MC. Just as she's doing for him. Which on the MC, and this is something I really empathise with him about and am working on myself. He needs to accept that expressing anger is sometimes okay, but I also love that he's working on finding a middle ground between keeping it all bottled in and avoiding confration (Which the Monster warned him about with Mia.) and exploding in justified anger and then feeling like you need to comfort and reassure the person you exploded at. It's very mature and a journey I am on myself. I really see so much of myself in both the MCs. It hurts to admit this, but I have wasted my twenties and now, at thirty, feel like I'm in the place where most people are at twenty or younger. I was so hurt and depressed, and did nothing with my twenties. Never truly lived, never explored the world, or allowed myself to be open, honest, and form genuine connections. I also used pot as an escapism and have done so much of it for an extended period of time that I probably have given myself irreversible brain damage. Fuck I even tried to kill myself multiple times, and it wasn't the people who loved me, or hope for a better future, that stopped me from doing it. But because I was scared of what came after death. Lol too scared to live, too scared to die. Im doing better now, or at least I hope I am. I'm taking small steps to improve myself and trying not to look at the big picture. But fuck this story cut me to the core and feels very close to home.
Honestly, I like Mia and the rest of the friend group as well. At times, it feels they are a little too invested in the MCs and that they may not have much of a life outside of them(Which is something I have noticed often in romance stories). And well, I was furious at Mia for her whole K plot. I think it came from a place of love (Which even plans born from love can ruin lives). At this point, I have a hard time not forgiving her and believing that she and all the friend group really do love, cherish, and want Lacey and the MC to be happy and flourish.
Fuck Will, fuck that old bitch of a landlord, and whoever else is working with them. I want to strangle them all and, at the same recognize how deeply unhealthy such an impulse is. I appreciate that their stupid fucking plans aren't going as well as they think, that open communication renders such plots powerless. And that they are going to waste time on another deepfake. I find it hard to believe that Will could seduce either Anna, Mia, or Lacey(and fuck him for neglecting his girlfriend, what an immature piece of shit.) But maybe he could get them to trust him enough that he gets a chance to spike their drinks with K and take advantage of them? Is that even something you could do? Would K work in that matter? I'm ignorant about K. Pot was always my drug of choice, and the others in my life who abused harder drugs did other drugs besides K. Anyway fuck them all and I hope their plans come to naught.
Im really glad the author left us where they did. After the emotional rollercoaster I went through, I think a cliff hanger would have left me dwelling on the story nonstop until Act three came out. As it is they left us in a place where I feel happy, comfy, and emotionally secure.
I have no idea who the Monster is. Someone suggested that it may be a group or Christie, and either could be true. I don't get why they are playing cloak and daggers. I don't understand why they are so invested and know so much. Not just about the MC, Lacey, and the friend group. But also about the villains and their plans. It also seems like they are a very busy person, even separate from their role as the monster.... Okay, this is a total nonsense shot in the dark. But what if the Monster is that head of accounting? The MC has already jokingly referred to them as his nemesis for other reasons. What if the little old lady who doesn't understand technology is a ruse, and she's actually some all-knowing wise woman, the eccentric mentor and triskter, like shows up so often in fiction(think Yoda and the like.), who wants to guide the MC to a happy ending? I mean it kinda seems weird that she would be in the story and have a model if she wasn't important.
For the title of Act three, "learning to let go." I really hope that it refers to learning to let go of jealousy, trauma, and pain. or incorporate it into a healthy relationship. And not the MC and Lacey learning to let go of each other. I need them to have a happy ending. Like it's a spiritual need and investment at this point. I need them to grow together like two trees intertwining with each other. Supporting each other without strangling each other. All the while growing together to reach for the sun.
And on the topic of strangling. It fucking breaks my heart that a part of Lacey seems to believe that this relationship will end with MC killing her. That it's something she's accepted and even fantasizes about. fuck it makes me want to cry and hug her.
Finally, outside the story, it is so fucking inspiring that the author wrote this well depressed. That they are so talented and creative. That they are able to put pieces of themself into a story and make it something amazing. With deep characters, an engaging plot, and real lessons and growth, and not jerkoff junk food. I have been exploring the NTR genre for a while, processing why I like it and what it says about me, and maybe the trauma I have gone through. And at first, the emotions, the pit in my stomach that the genre would make me feel, made me fascinated with every story. But recently, those emotions have been processed somewhat I realized how unsatisfied I am with many NTR stories. So many of them have bland two-dimensional characters that exist just to get fucked, with a story that doesn't really say anything, and the same tropes repeated over and over again. But this story and two others I have found recently have captured hold of me and helped me process my emotions, past trauma, the feeling that I am never enough for anyone, and really helped me grow. I'm thankful for the author. Well, at the same time, jealous. I always wanted to be an author, and I haven't written a word for ten years. Fuck I hate myself for giving that up. For feeling its too late to start now. Whenever I look at a blank page,e I am overwhelmed with the feeling that I am an uncreative piece of shit. With no stories worth telling, no journeys worth sharing, o characters worth creating, and that no one would ever care to read anything to have to write. The fact that this amazing story, which has affected me so deeply, is just a side project for the author, well, they are depressed....Well, it both inspires me, fills me with jealousy, makes me ashamed, and makes me want to be better.
Phew... well that turned into a whole long vent. If any of you bother to read all this, I am immensely thankful. I know it's a lot, and hopefully some of it was interesting to read. Hell, just writing it all down helped me with what I am feeling. I should probably go back, read it all again, and edit it. But I just don't have the emotional energy to do so right now so I am going to post it as is. Im going to go work out or clean. But i will be back. I want to do a more thorough reading of everyone else's thoughts on the story. I want to make an effort to be part of the discussion that is happening on this thread. This story is so amazing, and discussing it with everyone is something that I think will make me happy and make me feel like I'm back in a creative writing or English lit class again.
