Her issues I'd say are trauma and projection, she is an angry man-hater, . . .
Its the sort of things that differentiate her with me, . . . So its the difference between extremism and moderation.
I think putting me on the block list is a good idea - that's what things are for if you don't want to hear from me you don't need to.
I many cases I was getting tired of reading "you only need to this story on a surface level, women are narcissistic manipulators duh" and ignoring the evidence that the author of this AVN is encouraging the reader to question the story as it's being told. I mean you literally have ignore or explain away the author's introduction to keep to a surface-level reading. I was often replying of politeness and habit because I believe in returning effort extended.
You can swim in the shallow waters and I'll stick to the deep end.
I am, incidentally, not a woman. I think you, ladylydia, are brave to self identify as a woman on this site since, as we have seen, doing so encourages men to engage in aggressive sexual fantasies as form of trolling. (and those of you indulging in fucking a feminist fantasies - you've been fantasizing about someone who looks like the typical ugly bastard of NTR stories *blows kiss*)
I'm just a man whose social circle is made up of 90 percent women - which probably happened because my best friend is a woman. I'm also poly so I've dated more than many - one my partners was a masochist and a cutter and another a feminist scholar. So it's easy for me to dismiss opinions made by women who speak in the name of all women in spaces dominated by men because I can immediately think of exceptions to the rule. "I'd love to hear ____'s response to that!"
Now that that drama is dealt with - back to game drama.
Why is Isaac the only character who has shown growth in the game? I think a critically important dialogue in the game is the whale shark and remora dialogue. The MC comes to a life changing insight in that dialogue only to have it taken from him.
Here the MC makes remarkable growth - which all the more remarkable because Anna has set him up badly. If she had played the audio of the Isaac-Lacey taslk he would
hear the sincerity in Lacey's words as she grilled Isaac asking for the most trivial personal detail about her as a human being. Unfortunately Anna deletes the audio and Lacey has to explain it all while putting her worst foot forward.
But our anger addict almost keeps a lid on it and tries to avoid conflict until Lacey forces the anger out.
But in his fit of jealousy he actually gets it and Lacey drops the scapegoat "she is always at fault" thinking
"I think I might actually be a monster" - Gristle
MC "And in my head I make it seem like we were always a couple."
MC "But we weren't."
MC "We were never a romantic couple."
MC "But I guess I wanted that so badly, I just tell myself we were."
MC "And by looking at your past through that lens I've created..."
MC "it makes it feel like you cheated on me with all those men."
MC "But you didn't."
MC "You weren't mine."
MC "You had no idea what I was doing."
MC "For all you know I was dating and partying as much as you were."
MC "You had no idea that I was waiting for you."
MC "But in my head you did."
MC "So that makes it okay to hate you, when it really isn't."
MC "I'm punishing you for something that has nothing to do with me."
MC "I can't stop being angry about something that isn't mine to be angry about."
MC "And you keep making mistakes because of your past drug addiction."
MC "Which let's be honest, doesn't make you a bad person."
MC "It makes you a stastic."
MC "Abused children often develop addictions due to self medicating."
MC "It's so common that there are literally thousands of medical articles written about it."
MC "I'm mad at an abused child for making some bad life choices."
MC "I think I might actually be a monster."
MC "I keep asking you to stop hurting me."
MC "But when will I stop hurting you?"
MC "I've made you feel like that you're the bad one."
MC "That you're the one who keeps hurting our marriage."
MC "But I think it might be me."
MC "Or I guess... it is me."
MC "What if I'm making you sick?"
MC "Making your brain damage worse by being a tyrant."
MC "Constantly belittling you and making you feel bad about things you can't even help."
MC "..."
MC "I'm sitting around waiting for you to save me."
MC "But I won't let you, because I can't stop hating you."
MC "I can't stop hating the girl I love more than anything else in the world."
MC "I think that's why I was so angry at Isaac for offering you an escape."
MC "Because I'm scared to death you'll take it."
MC "And you wouldn't be in the wrong to do that."
MC "I'm sorry Lacey."
MC "I'm sorry that I make you feel the way I do."
MC "I'm sorry that I'm not more understanding."
MC "More gentle. More kind."
MC "More forgiving. Less quick to anger."
MC "You've had to rely on Anna and Mia to be there for you."
MC "Because I haven't been doing my job."
MC "Loving you. Protecting you. Taking care of you."
MC "Instead I sit around demanding you soothe my jealousy and feelings of inadequacy."
MC "And I've made you believe that's what you should be doing."
MC "..."
MC "Oh, and Isaac should definitely have apologized to you."
MC "Do I deserve one too? Absolutely."
MC "And he owes Kelly one as well."
MC "But he aired your past life on the internet."
MC "He insulted you."
MC "He said hurtful things about something you really shouldn't have to feel bad about."
MC "But because I'm so jealous I made the entire thing about me."
MC "So, I'm glad he apologized."
MC "I still hate him and hope he dies tragically and as soon as possible."
MC "And I REALLY don't want him in our house ever again."
MC "But still... I'm glad he told you he was sorry."
MC "Maybe one day..."
MC "After a lot of time has passed..."
MC "And you've been able to heal from the damage I've done..."
MC "Maybe you'll forgive me."
MC "Even if we aren't together anymore."
MC "..."
MC "I think I'm done word vomiting now."
show lacey_night_sad at midright with move
"Lacey puts her arms firmly around me."
L "That..."
L "was the most amazing, heartfelt speech you've ever given to me."
L "It was also the most real apology I've ever heard in my life."
But, tragically, Lacey saves madness from jaws of sanity and repeats the co dependent cycle. No! Blame me instead!
We were together! I did betray you! I'm a slut! . . .
So every time one the MC steps towards the mental health cliff she pulls him back from the edge because she is terrified of abandonment, because she addicted to the drama of this codependent relationship and because she needs to be punished for
something and having sex in college will do nicely.
She needs red bra night because that is better that stabbing herself with pencils or cutting herself with razor blades. Also, she knows, on some intuitive level at least, that the MC needs to berate, slap and choke her to feel well.
So the MC does make progress and the two of them conspire to destroy that progress.
Her creation of the harem - which makes the MC even worse - is a product of this same co dependent dynamic. If he understands that he is the whale shark he will get better, right? That's what an abuser needs - more reasons to believe his anger is justified, um right?