for the time i play the game , i associate myself with the protagonist yes , but in the case of a game like that , not really
but i try to put myself in his place , i try to understand the things from his point of view
it's just unhealthy curiosity , but it's not the reality , it's just a short ( and sometimes disgusting ) psychological experiment
it's the same thing when you play a role in theater , the time you are on stage , you are your character , and when the show is over you return to yourself