VN Ren'Py WVM [S2 Ch. 1 Ep. 13 B5] [Braindrop]

[Laziness]

Sad thing is I worry that BD is too concerned about what the reaction would be after failing in his self-imposed "few days" timeline.

 

[Heavy Sleeper]

Sad thing is I worry that BD is too concerned about what the reaction would be after failing in his self-imposed "few days" timeline.

Based on what he said before, people already send hate and anger his way even before that. So the "few days" as I would I assume he hoped would take him to complete this update(but emotions/life can really fuck with you sometimes), would only change the way they worded their hate more then anything else.

Horny assholes are probably the worst assholes. Give them anonymity, and they'll be even more stupid.

Being angry over a porn game?....I'm sorry, but I can just do literally anything else including getting off to other porn if I need it that badly.

 

[Iron-Beagle]

If you average out the number of days since the first version released and the amount of work that's been done on the game in that time,. it's still a higher workrate on average than a lot of games have had. We were spoiled a lot by BD's insanely high workrate at the start.

 

[ttsheng33]

BD is ok right

 

[armion82]

I never said anything about being chraged, I did however say I would re-up...if you are going to quote me at least quote the meat of what is being said. My point was the communication and time quoted from Patreon. Now since I detest arguments and since I detest those that don't read the full quote but choose to pick a singular out to respond to I am adding you to ignore. Nothing personal just I hate to be called out on a singular part of a post without the person reading the entire quote...hence the ignore function.

I was talking exactly about your words"to re-up".
It doesn't speak good for you that you stop the support exactly in the months when we are not charged.That sound hypocritical.

 

[Sheppard3rd]

I was talking exactly about your words"to re-up".
It doesn't speak good for you that you stop the support exactly in the months when we are not charged.That sousnd hypocritical.

Also people setting on ignore when he is called out of hypocritical beheaver is even funnier then his bullshit post.

 

[Chrome]

i was really hyped when i saw the update post...than i read all the thing BD was going through...
a game can w8 for something like that...i had his same experience as him sime years ago and it was really hard...
i closed myself to everybody...it was a normal reaction...flee from the bad reality if front of our eyes
everybody needs their own time to overcome such things...i get somebody wants news but BD needs all the time he nedds to heal and copy to what happend around him. all we have to do is hope that he is getting better.
sorry everybody 4 my corny words and my bad english...i know that a lot of people here are really concerned about BD, just ile me. Get well man, don't let the bad things that happend to you get the better of u!

 

[Ghostly Hale]

i see most of us care for the dev's health and that's good. If you are reading these man. Be strong stay strong. Life gets dark at times but there's a light waiting at the end of all this. You just have to keep pressing forward. God bless you BD.

 

[Hammerhiem]

This is just a post to update you guys on what my past two weeks has looked like and how I'm doing and when you can expect Day 7 final.

First I'd like to apologize for my absolute silence. I'm sure some of you were worried about me but I'm okay. I don't want to go too into everything as it still very much hurts to talk about but I'll say what I can.
Secondly I'd like to apologize for saying "update out in a few days in my last post". Things didn't go as planned and I should've updated you guys sooner.

I was not okay when I posted my last post. I was completely shocked and it hadn't really hit me yet despite some time already passing. It didn't really actually start to sink in until late that same night.
It's been a constant thing with me this year. It's like I don't process things until it's late night and quiet and I can be alone with my thoughts.
But with this I couldn't stand it. Nights have been so fucking hard. I tried to drown myself in work or streams or anything but it wasn't working and my girlfriend convinced me to stay with her for a bit.

So that's what the first 4 days were like. My girlfriend took some time off from her job to help me through this. (I'm gonna have to marry this girl lol) So I was staying at her place and she was helping me express shit.

During those 4 days I thought about a lot. I opened up about a lot and I realized a lot.
This has been a very humbling year. I didn't realize how much I could be crushed and how quickly it could happen.
I've realized I have some personal issues that have popped up as a result of things. Shit like abandonment issues. A bunch of shit like that.
But another thing I realized is I truly wasn't happy with how some scenes were turning out with the ending of day 7. I had convinced myself I liked them but that's mainly because I almost always hate everything I make for a short time after I make it. It's just how I am. But when I really started to vent I realized a lot of my anxiety was coming from a fear of disappointing.
Some of the scenes were hard to make and even harder to handle due to the hardware I had. 8GB of VRAM wasn't enough for what I was trying to do and even with all the optimization I could do things were just too hard and left sub-optimal results. And constantly optimizing and crashing was eating up so much time.
So I decided to upgrade.

The main reasoning as to why I hadn't already was I don't believe throwing money at a problem to fix it is a good thing usually. I believed the knowledge gained from knowing how to fix the problem was more valuable. But it's become pretty clear that 8GB of VRAM just isn't enough for some of these scenes. Especially if I want to do foursomes+ in the future. lol

But I decided to go all out. You guys support me to such an insane degree that I was able to.
As someone who used to play old school minecraft at 2fps this thing is still a dream to me.
3950x, 2x Titan rtx, 64GB ram.
And if you've followed me for a minute you might remember my first watercooling project didn't go very well. But this one went very smoothly. gpus never go above 45c and cpu hits around 70c

So yeah to sum it up. New computer and I'm redoing some scenes again. Day 7 final is important and I want it to be great.
Building this pc was very important to me. The time it took to research the parts and plan everything / build it all was such a great distraction for me.
He helped me pick and choose everything in my first loop. He was super into computers and the colors chosen for the loop were his favorite.

These past 11 days have been mostly spent planning and building the pc. I've also worked all of the days on my other machine.
I'm still working on myself. I won't lie, I'm still in a very bad place but things are going to be okay. I have the best girlfriend and best grandpa in the world so I'm gonna make it through this.

Part of me wanted to wait until the update was ready to post anything but I didn't want you guys to worry about me.
There isn't a set date for the release as there is admittedly a lot of work left but I promise you I'm working.
I know I've said this before but the goal is before the end of the month and if it's not out before then I'll be pausing pledges again.

Fuck, I have a lot more to say but I can feel myself getting emotional and I've tried really hard to not do so so far. Gonna wrap it up and share whatever later.

-I'm going to be okay
-built new pc to render large scenes
-redoing some scenes
-update out hopefully before the end of the month

I'd also like to quickly apologize for my lack of involvement on here or discord. It's just hard to talk about still and discord is hard to look at since it was our main source of communication. But I'll be back on there soon.

I fucking love you guys. Thank you so much for the support through these bad times. I promise you I won't forget it when we're back to the good. <3

Update.

 

[OEJ]

It me
This is just a post to update you guys on what my past two weeks has looked like and how I'm doing and when you can expect Day 7 final.

First I'd like to apologize for my absolute silence. I'm sure some of you were worried about me but I'm okay. I don't want to go too into everything as it still very much hurts to talk about but I'll say what I can.
Secondly I'd like to apologize for saying "update out in a few days in my last post". Things didn't go as planned and I should've updated you guys sooner.

I was not okay when I posted my last post. I was completely shocked and it hadn't really hit me yet despite some time already passing. It didn't really actually start to sink in until late that same night.
It's been a constant thing with me this year. It's like I don't process things until it's late night and quiet and I can be alone with my thoughts.
But with this I couldn't stand it. Nights have been so fucking hard. I tried to drown myself in work or streams or anything but it wasn't working and my girlfriend convinced me to stay with her for a bit.

So that's what the first 4 days were like. My girlfriend took some time off from her job to help me through this. (I'm gonna have to marry this girl lol) So I was staying at her place and she was helping me express shit.

During those 4 days I thought about a lot. I opened up about a lot and I realized a lot.
This has been a very humbling year. I didn't realize how much I could be crushed and how quickly it could happen.
I've realized I have some personal issues that have popped up as a result of things. Shit like abandonment issues. A bunch of shit like that.
But another thing I realized is I truly wasn't happy with how some scenes were turning out with the ending of day 7. I had convinced myself I liked them but that's mainly because I almost always hate everything I make for a short time after I make it. It's just how I am. But when I really started to vent I realized a lot of my anxiety was coming from a fear of disappointing.
Some of the scenes were hard to make and even harder to handle due to the hardware I had. 8GB of VRAM wasn't enough for what I was trying to do and even with all the optimization I could do things were just too hard and left sub-optimal results. And constantly optimizing and crashing was eating up so much time.
So I decided to upgrade.

The main reasoning as to why I hadn't already was I don't believe throwing money at a problem to fix it is a good thing usually. I believed the knowledge gained from knowing how to fix the problem was more valuable. But it's become pretty clear that 8GB of VRAM just isn't enough for some of these scenes. Especially if I want to do foursomes+ in the future. lol

But I decided to go all out. You guys support me to such an insane degree that I was able to.
As someone who used to play old school minecraft at 2fps this thing is still a dream to me.
3950x, 2x Titan rtx, 64GB ram.
And if you've followed me for a minute you might remember my first watercooling project didn't go very well. But this one went very smoothly. gpus never go above 45c and cpu hits around 70c

So yeah to sum it up. New computer and I'm redoing some scenes again. Day 7 final is important and I want it to be great.
Building this pc was very important to me. The time it took to research the parts and plan everything / build it all was such a great distraction for me.
He helped me pick and choose everything in my first loop. He was super into computers and the colors chosen for the loop were his favorite.

These past 11 days have been mostly spent planning and building the pc. I've also worked all of the days on my other machine.
I'm still working on myself. I won't lie, I'm still in a very bad place but things are going to be okay. I have the best girlfriend and best grandpa in the world so I'm gonna make it through this.

Part of me wanted to wait until the update was ready to post anything but I didn't want you guys to worry about me.
There isn't a set date for the release as there is admittedly a lot of work left but I promise you I'm working.
I know I've said this before but the goal is before the end of the month and if it's not out before then I'll be pausing pledges again.

Fuck, I have a lot more to say but I can feel myself getting emotional and I've tried really hard to not do so so far. Gonna wrap it up and share whatever later. It's also worth mentioning I'll start seeing a therapist soon.

-I'm going to be okay
-built new pc to render large scenes
-redoing some scenes
-update out hopefully before the end of the month

I'd also like to quickly apologize for my lack of involvement on here or discord. It's just hard to talk about still and discord is hard to look at since it was our main source of communication. But I'll be back on there soon.

I fucking love you guys. Thank you so much for the support through these bad times. I promise you I won't forget it when we're back to the good. <3

 

[The Krypt Angel]

View attachment 736275
It me
This is just a post to update you guys on what my past two weeks has looked like and how I'm doing and when you can expect Day 7 final.

First I'd like to apologize for my absolute silence. I'm sure some of you were worried about me but I'm okay. I don't want to go too into everything as it still very much hurts to talk about but I'll say what I can.
Secondly I'd like to apologize for saying "update out in a few days in my last post". Things didn't go as planned and I should've updated you guys sooner.

I was not okay when I posted my last post. I was completely shocked and it hadn't really hit me yet despite some time already passing. It didn't really actually start to sink in until late that same night.
It's been a constant thing with me this year. It's like I don't process things until it's late night and quiet and I can be alone with my thoughts.
But with this I couldn't stand it. Nights have been so fucking hard. I tried to drown myself in work or streams or anything but it wasn't working and my girlfriend convinced me to stay with her for a bit.

So that's what the first 4 days were like. My girlfriend took some time off from her job to help me through this. (I'm gonna have to marry this girl lol) So I was staying at her place and she was helping me express shit.

During those 4 days I thought about a lot. I opened up about a lot and I realized a lot.
This has been a very humbling year. I didn't realize how much I could be crushed and how quickly it could happen.
I've realized I have some personal issues that have popped up as a result of things. Shit like abandonment issues. A bunch of shit like that.
But another thing I realized is I truly wasn't happy with how some scenes were turning out with the ending of day 7. I had convinced myself I liked them but that's mainly because I almost always hate everything I make for a short time after I make it. It's just how I am. But when I really started to vent I realized a lot of my anxiety was coming from a fear of disappointing.
Some of the scenes were hard to make and even harder to handle due to the hardware I had. 8GB of VRAM wasn't enough for what I was trying to do and even with all the optimization I could do things were just too hard and left sub-optimal results. And constantly optimizing and crashing was eating up so much time.
So I decided to upgrade.

The main reasoning as to why I hadn't already was I don't believe throwing money at a problem to fix it is a good thing usually. I believed the knowledge gained from knowing how to fix the problem was more valuable. But it's become pretty clear that 8GB of VRAM just isn't enough for some of these scenes. Especially if I want to do foursomes+ in the future. lol

But I decided to go all out. You guys support me to such an insane degree that I was able to.
As someone who used to play old school minecraft at 2fps this thing is still a dream to me.
3950x, 2x Titan rtx, 64GB ram.
And if you've followed me for a minute you might remember my first watercooling project didn't go very well. But this one went very smoothly. gpus never go above 45c and cpu hits around 70c

So yeah to sum it up. New computer and I'm redoing some scenes again. Day 7 final is important and I want it to be great.
Building this pc was very important to me. The time it took to research the parts and plan everything / build it all was such a great distraction for me.
He helped me pick and choose everything in my first loop. He was super into computers and the colors chosen for the loop were his favorite.

These past 11 days have been mostly spent planning and building the pc. I've also worked all of the days on my other machine.
I'm still working on myself. I won't lie, I'm still in a very bad place but things are going to be okay. I have the best girlfriend and best grandpa in the world so I'm gonna make it through this.

Part of me wanted to wait until the update was ready to post anything but I didn't want you guys to worry about me.
There isn't a set date for the release as there is admittedly a lot of work left but I promise you I'm working.
I know I've said this before but the goal is before the end of the month and if it's not out before then I'll be pausing pledges again.

Fuck, I have a lot more to say but I can feel myself getting emotional and I've tried really hard to not do so so far. Gonna wrap it up and share whatever later. It's also worth mentioning I'll start seeing a therapist soon.

-I'm going to be okay
-built new pc to render large scenes
-redoing some scenes
-update out hopefully before the end of the month

I'd also like to quickly apologize for my lack of involvement on here or discord. It's just hard to talk about still and discord is hard to look at since it was our main source of communication. But I'll be back on there soon.

I fucking love you guys. Thank you so much for the support through these bad times. I promise you I won't forget it when we're back to the good. <3

*comes running with a clipboard full of news.....then see's OEJ beat him to it* tsk....damn it

 

[OEJ]

*comes running with a clipboard full of news.....then see's OEJ beat him to it* tsk....damn it

the guy above me beat me to it, but i was uploading the pic and it took time...

Aus internet is a bitch

 

[The Krypt Angel]

the guy above me beat me to it, but i was uploading the pic and it took time...

Aus internet is a bitch

my internet is awesome My problem is I decided to read the whole thing first with an uncaffienated brain that just woke up 15 minutes ago

 

[c3p0]

View attachment 736275
It me
This is just a post to update you guys on what my past two weeks has looked like and how I'm doing and when you can expect Day 7 final.

First I'd like to apologize for my absolute silence. I'm sure some of you were worried about me but I'm okay. I don't want to go too into everything as it still very much hurts to talk about but I'll say what I can.
Secondly I'd like to apologize for saying "update out in a few days in my last post". Things didn't go as planned and I should've updated you guys sooner.

I was not okay when I posted my last post. I was completely shocked and it hadn't really hit me yet despite some time already passing. It didn't really actually start to sink in until late that same night.
It's been a constant thing with me this year. It's like I don't process things until it's late night and quiet and I can be alone with my thoughts.
But with this I couldn't stand it. Nights have been so fucking hard. I tried to drown myself in work or streams or anything but it wasn't working and my girlfriend convinced me to stay with her for a bit.

So that's what the first 4 days were like. My girlfriend took some time off from her job to help me through this. (I'm gonna have to marry this girl lol) So I was staying at her place and she was helping me express shit.

During those 4 days I thought about a lot. I opened up about a lot and I realized a lot.
This has been a very humbling year. I didn't realize how much I could be crushed and how quickly it could happen.
I've realized I have some personal issues that have popped up as a result of things. Shit like abandonment issues. A bunch of shit like that.
But another thing I realized is I truly wasn't happy with how some scenes were turning out with the ending of day 7. I had convinced myself I liked them but that's mainly because I almost always hate everything I make for a short time after I make it. It's just how I am. But when I really started to vent I realized a lot of my anxiety was coming from a fear of disappointing.
Some of the scenes were hard to make and even harder to handle due to the hardware I had. 8GB of VRAM wasn't enough for what I was trying to do and even with all the optimization I could do things were just too hard and left sub-optimal results. And constantly optimizing and crashing was eating up so much time.
So I decided to upgrade.

The main reasoning as to why I hadn't already was I don't believe throwing money at a problem to fix it is a good thing usually. I believed the knowledge gained from knowing how to fix the problem was more valuable. But it's become pretty clear that 8GB of VRAM just isn't enough for some of these scenes. Especially if I want to do foursomes+ in the future. lol

But I decided to go all out. You guys support me to such an insane degree that I was able to.
As someone who used to play old school minecraft at 2fps this thing is still a dream to me.
3950x, 2x Titan rtx, 64GB ram.
And if you've followed me for a minute you might remember my first watercooling project didn't go very well. But this one went very smoothly. gpus never go above 45c and cpu hits around 70c

So yeah to sum it up. New computer and I'm redoing some scenes again. Day 7 final is important and I want it to be great.
Building this pc was very important to me. The time it took to research the parts and plan everything / build it all was such a great distraction for me.
He helped me pick and choose everything in my first loop. He was super into computers and the colors chosen for the loop were his favorite.

These past 11 days have been mostly spent planning and building the pc. I've also worked all of the days on my other machine.
I'm still working on myself. I won't lie, I'm still in a very bad place but things are going to be okay. I have the best girlfriend and best grandpa in the world so I'm gonna make it through this.

Part of me wanted to wait until the update was ready to post anything but I didn't want you guys to worry about me.
There isn't a set date for the release as there is admittedly a lot of work left but I promise you I'm working.
I know I've said this before but the goal is before the end of the month and if it's not out before then I'll be pausing pledges again.

Fuck, I have a lot more to say but I can feel myself getting emotional and I've tried really hard to not do so so far. Gonna wrap it up and share whatever later. It's also worth mentioning I'll start seeing a therapist soon.

-I'm going to be okay
-built new pc to render large scenes
-redoing some scenes
-update out hopefully before the end of the month

I'd also like to quickly apologize for my lack of involvement on here or discord. It's just hard to talk about still and discord is hard to look at since it was our main source of communication. But I'll be back on there soon.

I fucking love you guys. Thank you so much for the support through these bad times. I promise you I won't forget it when we're back to the good. <3

Thanks. Take your the time you need and do the things that are helping you. And for what it is worth keep that girlfriend of yours. For what I can say see is one person that care greatly for you and have a positiv effect on you.
So see you, when you're ready and in the mean time take all the time you need.

 

[qwsl]

Hooray! He is OK! And even a new render station! (I don't understand, is it really impossible to use layer rendering in DAZ, or export to a more advanced external renderer, without restrictions?)
but now there is a new problem: hope, that the wedding does not interfere with the work - usually after that the developers completely quit from VN develop - there is no time or the wife is jealous to the virtual harem.

 

[KinkierThanThou]

All I can add is that it is a huge sense of relief that BD is still alive and kicking and doing relatively okay.

 

[OEJ]

Hooray! He is OK! And even a new render station! (I don't understand, is it really impossible to use layer rendering in DAZ, or export to a more advanced external renderer, without restrictions?)
but now there is a new problem: hope, that the wedding does not interfere with the work - usually after that the developers completely quit from VN develop - there is no time or the wife is jealous to the virtual harem.

i dont know if you are joking or serious but..... there is no wedding. its an idiom, nthng more

 

[I'm Not Thea Lundgren!]

*comes running with a clipboard full of news.....then see's OEJ beat him to it* tsk....damn it

That's what you get for going into *Angry Parent Mode*

 

[Moriaxx]

I am just happy, that he is okay for the circumstances he is in. The game should wait as long as he needs for himself without pressure. Most important thing is, that he gets through this hard time. Doesn't matter how long it takes

 

[qwsl]

Dudes, don't you want BD to be happy? After all the shit that has hit him in recent months?
BD Good Dude - since he promised to get married, then he MUST do!
and why are you being so serious?