Idk if anyone will read this or anyone cares, but I have some things to get of my chest, why not tell a bunch of strangers who have one thing in common, the love for this game.
Playing this game really started some things inside me. I am not ashamed to say I cried over this game. Not just because of the tragedy but also because of the pureness of friendship and love portrayed so perfectly. I thought a lot about friendship, love and life in general. Well, I often do, but again, something happened with me because of this game.
When I was about 15 yo I started playing videogames and really got into the 'scene'. I was not attractive at all, I still don't think I am, so was noone of my friends. Since then i kinda drugged myself with games, stupid YT videos etc. and ehen I didn't I felt uncomfortable with the world around me and my feelings. Up to this day I never had a gf (I am 23 yo now) which really sucks. To compensate I watched porn, as one does. Nothing changed over the years.
Last year in January my grandpa died of cancer and since then my grandma with dementia lives with us, events that made it even worse for me (Sorry for spelling mistakes, grammar mistakes, not my mothertongue).
Not only since then I became more and more mentally unstable. I needed more of those 'drugs' which made me forget about the real life and feelings. I can barely cry, because I feel so emotionless. Kinda reminds me of 'Fight Club', whose protagonist is unable to cry as well.
Playing this game, I thought it would be just another sex game, changed everything (played for the first time two days ago). I cried for the first time in over a year. So much released feelings. Everything I tried to avoid over the last years. I can't describe it, I am on the one hand just absolutely sad and I havd this burning in my breast, the same you have when you are in love. The last two days I felt like really thinking again, really being me and feeling myself again.
I think about friendship and what I have done wrong in the past few years, I feel like a complete asshole regarding some friends. I think about love, what I really want in life. As I said, it is burning through my body.
I know this sounds kinda stupid, but I think this game hit a switch (dunno if you understand, again not my first language). I hope it stays that way and I will be abke to use this feeling dor good and change some things in my life.
Thank you for reading my nonsense and thank you Dr Pinkcake for developing this game. It's amazing and a masterpiece.
P.S.: I chose Melissa, again sounds stupid, but irl she would be THE woman for me. Really love her character, her character developement, just everything about her (also she is freaking attractive)
