I don't know why I do this to myself. Playing helps me retreat elsewhere and makes me love and appreciate life all the more, but when the experience is over, I get deeply saddened because I dont want it to end, and it makes me yearn for such experiences, as well as companions in my waking reality.
It took me almost a year, and or several months just to gather up enough strength to move on from Acting Lessons. Like literally. As for Being a DIK. I was aware of it, but I've always sidelined it because after completing Acting Lessons, I was left with hurt feelings mostly because of how much I enjoyed it, and didnt want it to end. Thus why I refused to play Being a DIK, for I did not want those hurt feelings within me again.
However, another reason why I've always sidelined Being a DIK was because I had this belief that it wasnt going to be anywhere near as good as Acting lessons. Holy holy was I wrong. Being a DIK is still in development, yet I already feel so attached to characters, and when it got to the deciding with your heart advice, and with the choices I've made while progressing, and how the characters responded, basically I did what I would do in reality, and darn it because it hurt me then and it still does now. My heart was and is crying out, and I was on the edge of tears during certain moments, and I'm still hurting because I've just completed episode 5. During the journey, some moments had my heart racing because I was afraid of losing someone.
Lastly, I went in with my interest in certain characters because their looks were more of my preference, but eventually I started steering away from them, for I fell in love with others because of their personalities. As for the music, its great and certain tracks compliments certain scenes so well. *Spoiler alert* Such as the bathing scene with Jade. Twas beautiful, and it earned a special place in my heart. I had eyes on and preferred Cathy at first, but fell in love with Jade. Though I'll see if I steer away from Jade once and if Cathy's story develops. If I do, then Im an unfaithful companion I guess. Sadly, I dont think Jade nor Cathy will be characters you get to complete with. If that turns out to be the case then I am still torn between basically the major cast. Mainly Josy and Maya. Though I really am into Sage, but my gut feeling keeps telling me that she will never get over her significant other, and that perhaps she just cant be trusted. As for Jill and Isabella, I keep telling myself that I only see them as friends, but the further I progress, the more I find myself questioning, Wow, do I really just want to stay friends? Im falling for them. As for Quinn, well, shes not my type, but I saw some attractive qualities with her at times. As for the other characters, I dont wanna get into detail because I've written a book already, so this will do. Though I really am interested in the I guess, "side" characters as well.
So, to those that have yet to experience Being a DIK, dont wait any longer. Waiting will do you no good. Im just glad that I finally started it up after having it sidelined for so long, but now that I've completed whats available at the moment, I'm sad now...... I miss them all already. Label me a weeny and or soft, but hey, whatever.
PS- Thanks for the experience(s) and all that you do DrPinkCake. I have a speech impediment (stutter) though not a severe stutter, and an example of how my speech is, its basically like Bill's from IT chapter 2. Even so , its frustrating, and I dont have any friends at all. I work harder whenever I put myself out there, let alone socialize. and maintain relationships. Ultimately, my biggest curses are those that are self imposed. I'm in my mid twenties/nearly thirty, yet still have yet to be in an actual relationship with a women. So, my life is very lonely and quiet. I dropped out of college 2 years ago because I dont really know what I want out of college, and since then I basically am doing the simply "existing" jobs. Regarding your creation(s) they make me yearn all the more, and I guess experience what I dont have, and perhaps will never have. Love, companions, touching and personal moments with others rather than yourself/myself. However, I promise you that when I wake up from sleep, I will pledge on patron. Its nearly 4am, and as I stated, I've just completed episode 5 some minutes ago, and am stuck listening to the track "relax" on repeat. The track that played during the bathing scene with Jade, and as I stated, twas a beautiful scene, and has a special place in my heart. So, thanks again.
