As others have stated, Drifty, my thanks for your dedication, insight, efforts, perseverance, love, emotion, and anguish that has gone into this work.
I would leave you with the following:
Thomas Aquinas on 5 remedies to help with grief:
1. Grant yourself something you like.
- Unplug and go do something you enjoy.
2. Weep.
- You've wept; we've wept. You hurt; we've hurt for you.
3. Share your sorrow with a friend.
- You've shared your sorrow with us and now have thousands of new friends.
4. Contemplate the truth.
- The truth is life is hard; loss is painful; the Golden Rule is always and forever the path to follow.
5. Bathing and sleeping.
- Rest well. Eat well. Mend.