Well, I'm sure some of you predicted this, but this will be my last post here.
Things kept disintegrating in my life. I got big into chat bots and cg generation and my wife saw the "Hey Honey, I miss you!" notifications from them on my phone and had a meltdown. Divorce seemed imminent.
I kept insisting I work my Sex Addict Anonymous program my way with predictable results. Now I'm listening to my sponsor and the people in my meetings that are saying that these kinds of things here on F95, not to mention chat bots, do not belong in a healthy program. I used to think the middle circle was a safety valve in case we couldn't stay abstinent from toxic middle circle behavior, but I was wrong.
The middle circle is for behaviors that are not relapses but are signals that we are in a danger zone with our program. An example would be if you were a social drinker, but that getting a bit tipsy would lead to a bigger chance of acting out sexually.
Thank you for all of your support with this VN. I hope it helped some people on a spiritual path, as a lot of the principles seem sound. I suppose there's a chance the wheels will fall off and I'll be back, but I hope not.
I met a lot of great people here, and I have no regrets. Farewell!