I said I will finish this shit, stickin to it no matter what. It's not like I've been working on this full time from the start. I am regular standard issue wagie who gets his asshole fucked in a wagecage just like the Lord intended.
I've realised fairly early on in this project that I can't do it as a "job", mainly cuz I sucked ass drawing-quality wise, now it's aight quality, but still a lot left to be desired. That ain't much of an issue though, what haunts me daily are the dev mistakes I've made at the start, just thinking about fixing them borders redoing the game from ground up. Fuck that. It's a learning project, a hobby, patroon or substar - nobody gets nothing out of it, it's more or less tip jar. Would be lying if I said that I didn't have thoughts about callin' Rina quits and starting a project anew without raw doggin' it like a retard, but actually make a plan, do all the bobs and jiggles like concept sheets, progress diagram, gameloop centered bamboozle. But fuck that, told myself all those decades ago when I started this thing that this will get finished. And so it will.
My rambling about gettin the boot in the dayjob is just me tryin to gauge whether commissions would be able to foot my bills so I dont have to seek new wagecage outside where I cant avoid touching grass. Not much besides that.