I have to say, the thing I love most about SOC is the same thing I love about Berserk. You don't fuck around and you show the real shit! (Or... well... as real as you can get in fiction)
Y'know. Like the 'ol Rastedel sacking and burning, you sure didn't shy away from that shit! I still get shivers going through that section... and I've been through it like 5 times now.
Or Kate... It's already been ~two years since I last saw that event (Can't remember how to get it)... still remember everything about that scene like it was yesterday. None of that typical hentai bullshittery about them bitches loving that rape and suddenly going "I LOVE RAPE!" In big capital fucking letters. Nah, this is the Real shit.
And I gotta admit... going through Rastedel's slums is a guilty pleasure of mine. Practically everything there is brilliant, the descriptions... I can smell the streets, see the people walking through, the clothes their wearing... the poverty. I can practically imagine it in my head whenever I read.
Fuck. It's still hitting me even now, just how much I love berserk. I find it stunning how my life has been changed, simply reading/watching berserk... and the fact that I likely won't get the closure I wanted, nor to know how it will end, is just so... sad
It used to be that I had two things that I really looked forward to (Regarding fiction), and which I have gravitated towards. Seeds of Chaos and Berserk. But now, there's only Seeds of Chaos left.
And, I know Seeds of Chaos is at it's heart, a game where people are supposed to be doing the 'ol Sexy-sexy times. But, over time, slowly with each update, Seeds of Chaos is becoming everything that I have always wanted. It has story, it has feels, it has heart... it has trauma. To me, the sex is just the icing on the cake.
I have to say, in all honesty... this is distressing for me. If my recent onset of depression hasn't sucked enough for me lately, Miura's death was an un-expected dick-punch and curbstomp all in one go.
I wouldn't be so dis-inclined to talk on other subjects. I just find myself so... flabbergasted... that I can't think about anything else, at the moment. All I've been focusing on is this feeling of the void... forever not knowing how the story would end, that feeling that I'll never get closure on the world that has changed me, has kept me awake overnight.
I suppose I can only end this with one word.
Fuck
Could I have worded this differently? Probably. But this, this is how I feel at the moment. Can't even begin to imagine how all the Dev's are feeling about this right now. Y'all loved Berserk just like me. I know I haven't been on Discord in a long while (I don't want to deal with people at the moment), but If you are reading this... Please, keep going. Not that you won't be going full steam ahead anyway, you always have. It is just that, Seeds of Chaos is perhaps the last branch left on the tree... fantasy wise, for me. And it would be a tremendous shame if Seeds of Chaos was left unfinished as well.
Edit: Forgot to say that I am eagerly awaiting the May update.