As it turns out it was not porn, that was my addiction but “just” something I turned to when I was feeling down which has become more and more frequent after I decided to quit my antidepressant earlier this year.
I’m back on medication again and also seeing a therapist on a regular basis now, which I wasn’t before and that is helpful in so many ways as well as disturbing.
The good news is that she believes that I will be able to continue working on my projects, when I learn how to handle the triggers that led me down this unfortunate hole in the ground. When this will happen is unknown at present, but she is confident that it will happen within this year as she thinks I’m making good progress – so far.