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Hey guys, I hope everyone is okay.
I just want to say sorry the current update is taking so long. I really hoped to have it done by now but It's been a bit of a struggle the past few weeks.
I hate to make excuses but I feel at least an explanation is needed.
I would say I've been struggling for motivation but motivation is not the right word, I've really wanted to get this update finished but I've been lacking the creative spark or inspiration to make it happen. Instead it's been a bit of an unenjoyable grind which then only seems to make it harder to think creatively and productively.
I think after the update is done I'm going to take a break, at least until the new year. I think I will also reassess how much time I spend working of this project.
Right now it pretty much consumes most of my free time, If I ever take some time for myself to relax I only end up feeling under more pressure catch up. So far I've been able to keep working productively but it's finally starting to catch up with me. As much as I enjoy working on this project, when I start to struggle I begin to hate it too.
I think it is partly down to the way I accept support through patreon and it's monthly billing cycle. I feel a massive obligation to keep working each month as to not let you all down. I try my best not to promise anything as not to feel guilt when I can't deliver. I've accepted all your support over the years as its the only way I have been able justify spending the as much time working on this project as I do. Obviously this is none of your fault, you have all been amazing, this is pressure I can't help but put on myself.
I want to continue working on this project, I think I just need to be able do it my own pace, without pressure, what ever that pace happens to be. I will have look into some alternative way of accepting support. Something so people can give when I actually deliver rather than at regular time intervals.
I hope you all understand.
Thank you all as always and take care.
