I also think you should know the reason why it happened, they must have a good reason for doing it but idk (maybe i kind of think you know already...) but don`t lose faith in what you are doing even if you are doing it wrong (lol) but you should keep doing what you love if you love doing it.
Keep it real man!

(but that said you have even been a bit of a dick to me and i am a total newb here, you may think about being less of a dick and maybe people will like you more, just saying... maybe try to widen your perspective a bit would help alot)
Regards Me